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damn how this song voiced out exactly how i feel!
so frustrated with myself >_<





its been a week since i last updated my blog.
not that i'm too busy/ neglecting my online diary. just that everytime i wanted to post an entry, i would be reminded of the stupid incident and blunder that i've made. and the issue is still pending. hence.. don't really feel like blogging.
also, another reason might be i'm just being my stubborn self.

weekdays and weekends.. don't seem to have much of a difference.
previously, even though i hate weekdays.. i still have weekends to look forward to..
now that they seem the same.. hmm.
seriously feel that i'm wasting my life away.
i foresee that this week will remain the same.. either that or worse.


don't comment that more often than not, my entries sounded depressing.
well, it reflects what's in my mind at that exact moment.
i hate it that i sounded so pessimistic at times, but i really can't help myself. not sure how am i supposed to fake it and post something that's not what i really think. afterall, this is my blog eh. and by doing that, it will totally defeat the purpose of creating this web.
who wouldn't love an optimistic, vibrant and cheerful life, which is full of laughter and joy, without any worries, frets or discontentment?
these are easy for us to say, until you try to put it into action.
sad to say that things often don't happen the way you wish for it to be.

Labels: general

Someone asked me to do this quiz.
And i realised that i'm back to doing what i was doing when i was bored in the past!
lol~

You Are 50% Left Brained, 50% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

You Are A Woman!

Congratulations, you've made it to adulthood. You're emotionally mature, responsible, and unlikely to act out. You accept that life is hard - and do your best to keep things upbeat. This makes you the perfect girlfriend... or even wife!

what?! i thought the last time i did this quiz, it said i'm a girl.
shucks. i hate being referred to as a woman.

Your Candy Heart Says "First Kiss"

You're a true romantic who brings an innocent hope to each new relationship. You see the good in every person you date, and you relish each step of falling in love. Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a romantic dinner your sweetie cooks for you Your flirting style: friendly and sweet What turns you off: cynics who don't believe in romance Why you're hot: you always keep the romance alive

What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

Your True Birth Month Is December

Logical Patriotic Ambitious Not egoistic Loves praise Loves to joke Fun to be with Not pretending Loves attention Short tempered Hates restrictions Loves to socialize Loves to be loved Loyal and generous Impatient and hasty Changing personality Good sense of humor Honest and trustworthy Influential in organizations Takes high pride in oneself Active in games and interactions

What's Your True Birth Month?

Woa~ amazing! it really is my TRUE birthday month. lol^^

Labels: quiz

time flies.. still rmb i'm dreading for the monday to come, due to my colleague going for reservist for 2 weeks and some other reasons.. but, look, he's back alrdy and 14 days had just flew passed. wow~

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- although nohohon is cute.. but, it can be abit annoying at times too.
i don't want a nohohon for my bf!!! >_< -
haha. just a flashback. my boy is being his silly self.

Today
beep beep. 1 message received.
quickly grabbed my hp and check.
nah.. just some ppl. *disappointed*

beep. 1 message received.
repeat the same thing.
ended up disappointed again.

it happened again and again.
den beep.
i told myself that "its not going to be him (cos i know its so not possible), so please relax when u checked the msg".
however.. "ohhh........" i still can't help but feel a little disappointment in me. lol.
i'm being stupid.

so this is what i meant by not having any expectations or hopes, or u'll end up disappointed. this is only a very minor case of e.g. that i'm stating here.

hmm.
anyway. i had a great weekend.
hmm.. he's being sweet and he has also given me a 'lil' sth' (as he calls it) ^_^
don't think i would bear to eat it, even though its tempting me so much.
just looking at it will do =)

aww.. now i don't know when will be the next time i can see him =(

Labels: *in love*

my precious happy mood is destroyed!!

keep rushing me for the stocks, "when is it arriving? why hasn't it arrive? my customer needs it tml morning, so you MUST send it out today. blah blah blah.."
you are not the only one who's urgent, other ppl also needing the parts asap.
what can i do. i'm also trying my best to rush the forwarder for the stocks.
its not as if i can control when, how and the time the goods can arrive.
alrdy told you i'll send them out once i receive. now that i hafnt even receive the goods, what do you want me to do.

ok. so the goods just arrived.
i told you and yet u still continuing to blah blah all the way on phone. still emphasising on the urgency, but with u wasting my time, how am i supposed to do the stocks?
my god.. you really damn desperate.

damn the DHL, haven't come and pick up the goods yet.
how long do you want me to do my OT?

i am only one person, i can only do this much.
i'm don't have a built-in computerised database in me ok.
if each and every client has their own customising for me to follow, i will go crazy.


hoo... cool down girl.
think.. think about your teddy bear.
focus on your sweet sweet love.
urghhh.. >_<

Labels: rumbling^

was all smiles. been grinning widely or smiling sweetly at nothing while travelling from my home to workplace. hehe. so much so that ppl might think that i've lost my screw or sth. but, i couldn't care less^^

well, it wasn't too hard to understand, reason being, my teddybear had just given me a pleasant surprise yst. haha.

was supposed to meet him at our usual place at ard 6pm.. but he seems abit weird. i did wondered, "don't tell me he is going to come here (my office)." den again i answered my own thoughts, "no lar, he wouldn't. its just not his practice to give surprises." =(

so was waiting patiently for 530pm to arrive.. den.. i heard my boss calling me that someone is looking for me, so i went out to the reception. didn't see him at first, den got a shock when i saw him. haha.. omg. for a minute, i didn't know how to react, just gaped.
hais.. it suddenly seemed to me that i hafnt seen him for a long time.
it really was a pleasant surprise :)
its the first surprise he had planned for me, i tink.
anyway, it left me in an happy and uplifting mood, which i hope will last till saturday. hehe.
in the meantime, i'll just continue grinning like the cheshire cat =D =D =D

Labels: *in love*, happy

oh my god.
its a damn boring day.
absolutely nothing to do and the whole office is so quiet.
and with the heavy thunderstorm outside, i have a hard time keeping my eyes open.
-_-...Zzz

my left cheek is hurting.
all thanks to someone who pinched my cheek yesterday as if it isn't able to feel any pain.
im not exaggerating hor..
its really like blue-black liao ok.
sobs sobs =(

Labels: boring, rumbling^

free from work today.
actually have plans to bring my mum out for a treat..
but.. cancelled it in the end.

met up with darren and weida.
its been long since we meet up and chat.
haha, weida looks funny with his thick specs on and shaved head. lol, he has become a big geek.
Went to lotsa places.. JP, JE, MS and finally Suntec to catch a movie.
couldn't decide on the places to go, and i suggested going to MS to have lunch at Han's.
where.. kwok ping joined us halfway.
very long didn't see him alrdy. hmm.. four years?
hafnt changed much, except for the fact that he has become lots fitter.

den.. bcos weida has to book in early at Tekong, he couldn't join us for the movie.
currently all the movies shown are so seriously boring..
watched Mr Woodcock. no doubt its a stupid movie.

took bus back to JW.
it was a long long journey.
ate at the hawker centre near our house.
although i've been living there for nearly 20years, not once have i been there to eat.
the place is recommended by darren.
surprisingly its quite nice.



there...
goes my Sunday...

Labels: general

now as i try my hardest to not let my mind wander to that particular person..
someone decided to initiate the topic.
hais.. making me suffer like hell.

i need to find something to divert my attention.
(2:13am)
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lol.
one of my friend trying so damn hard to cheer me up.
i suddenly felt that i'm like a seriously stubborn tortoise, with my head hidden in the shell. absolutely refusing to stick out.
den.. he said something funny..
and finally.. i gave in and laughed and he felt that he have accomplished something extremely challenging. lol.
poke, my head finally come out of the shell le.

LAME =,=
no comments.

Labels: at work, listless

Met up with Clara, Minghui & YanLing!
Took loads of photos while dining at McDonalds. lol.
I was abit paiseh, bcos there was alot of ppl looking >_<


Niwae. here are the photos, fresh from oven^^

(Me, Clara, YanLing, Minghui)

Labels: fun

for the first time in my life, i'm not looking forward to weekends!
in fact, i hope that monday will arrive asap.

this weekend, i'll be sad, down, miserable and depressed..
hope i wouldn't miss him too much.
especially when u know that feeling is not being reciprocated =(

the feeling of missing someone is too painful, its indescribable.
my mind, my heart will start to act as if they have a life of their own.
just can't seem to control them.
heart feels as if its threatening to tear apart.
and i don't want that to happen.

Labels: sadness

i wonder sometimes.. what is love all about?
why is there a thing on Earth?

Love is such a funny thing.
It is able to make you feel a thousand of emotions all within a short time.
Its able to let you be on cloud's nine & then, flick you off and u'll feel as if you are living hell.

Sure, you can feel all the sweetness inside your heart initially, but as time passes, it all disappears as if there is some magic wearing off.
you will start to take notice of all the weaknesses that seemed oblivious from you - as the saying, "Love blinds a man to all imperfections".
and you will begin to sulk, and will, most of the time, remain in a disheartened kind of mood.
but still.. this form of happiness and sweetness that you experience couldn't be found in any others, they are different from the love you shared between your family and your friends.
Therefore, it is important in continuing to maintain the magic, even after months and years, so that the love will still remain as strong as steel and as fresh as the start of a day.


Love.. in short.
We think about it, dream about it,
lose sleep worrying about it.
When we don't have it, we search for it.
And when we discover it, we don't know what to do with it.
We fear losing it.
Its our source of pleasure and pain
but we can't predict which it will be from one moment to the next.
Its a short word,
easy to spell,
difficult to define,
and impossible to live without.


wah lao. what day is today??
how come i'm so damn busy? the minute i stepped into the office, i started working at top speed. it seems like the work is never ending. there is so much to do.
preparing for deliveries, generating invoices, loading purchase orders, updating reports, doing quotations. urghh..
i was so rush for work that i even forgot that i brought my breakfast to work.
and then, was so held up at work that i didn't have my lunch.
can feel my stomach growling now. but not much feeling. i think its kinda immune alrdy.
finally, i managed to clear up certain impt work and now i have the time to do my blog entry.
and now that i'm free..... i feel really hungry :(

niwae. this two weeks are going to be super sad and slow.
why is it that i feel ppl are abandoning me?
my collegue went for reservist - for two weeks; so i need to temporary take over his position. Do up quotations etc..
he abandon me inside the office. he good.

i'm already covering for someone.
now have to cover for him as well.

Sales Coordinator + Sales Engineer + Engineer Coordinator
i demand a triple salary from my boss!!! grrr..

that's not all.
what's worse is>>>>>
my teddy bear is also going to abandon me ='(
hais.. while he's having all the fun, i'll be suffering alone.
time sure will pass fast for him, but my minutes will seem like eternity.

boo! bad bear.
~nOT faiR!!
not fair..........
='((((((


humph.
i'm like getting gloomier and dejected with every word that i typed, shall stop here.

Labels: moody

so many things cn happen within a week.
countless.
hais..

whats the point of shedding tears when someone has passed on, when you don't care and appreciate them when they are around. when i see those crying, i even doubt their sincerity and the tears that they shedded - genuine/just crocodile tears.
i can almost feel some of them feeling light-hearted in the hospital that day - waiting for that moment to arrive - that finally the burden is off their shoulders.
all these faking idiots that are full of shit.
well, but of course, among all these rotten apples, there are still some good ones.
i'm sure he, who now lives in a place where there is only happiness and no pain, will see and truly understand who are the ones who really cares about him.

first time in my life have i met this person. the relationship we shared can be considered quite close. but i really cannot stand her. once, twice, thrice.. everytime she start to open her mouth, i will become very impatient and really got to hold back to prevent myself from slapping her mouth. i think one of the reason why i couldn't stand her is also bcos she resembles someone. but come to think of it, all of them looks as if they are clones.
so fake. she is damn fake. she is getting on my nerve. i hope i won't have to see her ever again.


rest in peace. although you are gone from our lives, you leave behind memories, which will be etched in our hearts forever.



Photos taken at Tampines BaliThai - Farewell dinner to Laggy aka Flora
















While waiting for the food to be served.


































































What a sumptuous meal! =D..














































Smooches + Muacks ^^ (lol.. talk abt gross)

































If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.

I was sort of hoping, that you would come along.
Like the answer to a prayer, and the music to a song.
Like the kind of thing that happens, at a special place and time, that will change our lives forever, like a fantasy of mine.
The fantasy was there before, i ever knew your name.
And now that I have found you, we will never be the same.
So, pardon, if I look at you, forgive me if I stare, at the fantasy I knew before, I saw you standing there. For I was always hoping, that you would come along, like the answer to a prayer, and the music to a song.

Your lips speak soft sweetness, your touch a cool caress.
I am lost in your magic, my heart beats within your chest.
I think of you each morning, and dream of you each night.
I think of your arms being around me, and cannot express my delight.
Never have I fallen, but I am quickly on my way.
You hold a heart in your hands, that has never before been given away.

Hello all. Welcome to moi blog.

I've just passed the age of what you called, teenagers.
So ya, as much as I hate to admit. I'm officially an adult now.
Time to grow up and be independent.

I'm a clumsy person.
More often than not, I do not know what I want.
Meaning, I contradict myself.
I love myself, but I hate that I have this tendency to think too much
- hence, explained the creation of this blog.



#1 [my Soulmate]
#2 [my Baobei]
#3 [my Baby]
--> ♥Saiful Azfar♥:
This guy got me mesmerized.

[my Toshiba Portégé M800]
[my iPod Touch]
[Marshmallows]
[Chocolates]
[Mints]
[Jasmine Pearl Milk Tea Xp]
[McCafe's Double Chocolate]
[Spaghetti (Tomato base)]
[Famous Amos Chocolate Chip Cookies!]
[Dramas]
[Music]
[Shop shop]
[Fun]
[Stars]
[Pink]
[Purple]
[Rainbow]



#1 World Peace
(blah. That wish is meant for Miss Universe; not me.)
#2 Indulging in
- Attention
- Love
- Genuine Care
- Concern (from my Love)
#3 Plane ride
#4 See snow
#5 Pink Nintendo DS Lite
#6 Pink Laptop
#7 Anything given by *him*
#8 Small Bolster
#9 xX SecRet Xx

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x[YanLing]x




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