Everyday StoriesYYY
Thursday, October 30, 2008,11:04 PM
Status: Attached Single
feeling super down, moody and ultra neglected!~
its like back to being SINGLE again.
should find some fun to keep myself occupied with.
Labels: listless, moody
Wednesday, October 15, 2008,12:43 AM
being Forgotten is like constantly picking at the Scar ... where the Wound re-opens ...
who what am i?
so easily being forgotten...
... just goes to show where i stand in his heart
where his work will always be the priority ...
am i of such an insignificant?
why can't i do the same?
suffering from the pain & hurt ...
... it is deeper than you think
and i'm more vulnerable than you thought i were
Labels: heartbreak, listless, moody
Wednesday, March 12, 2008,1:37 PM
Love.Hurts.
got drenched again yesterday. already walked abt 2/5 of the distance, turning back into the office is not a solution, will still be as wet, plus i've also gt an appointment time to keep. the minute i boarded the bus, i wanted to get off. it was damn cold and i'm shivering and shaking uncontrollably. To keep myself warm, i stayed still so that my wet clothes will stick to my body and not shift about.
i was taking the outer seat on the bus, and as more n more people boarded the bus, i was thinkin to myself if someone want me to let him/her into the inner seat, what am i gg to do about it. cos once i move an inch, i will be alot more colder as i'm losing heat.
as a result of yesterday, i'm not feeling well now. abit feverish and the cold that im having is really irritating. running nose and sneezing badly. maybe this is some form of retribution - then, they're too kind to me.
i think i've failed as a emotionally attached partner.
tactless. sarcastic. like to be in ctrl. foul mood. and any other things that you might want to add.
i think i better talk less.
the lesser i talk, the lesser mistake i make.
the argument. was so vaguely familiar.. i felt i'm back at somewhere, only this time, i've shifted from the viewer to one of the two who were arguing.
a bad day that i'm having. i felt better by eating chocolates.
Labels: listless
Sunday, October 14, 2007,1:38 AM
its hari raya today.
the weather fully described my mood.
as expected, its raining again on this particular day.
woke up abruptly at 5am.. to see a sms frm someone.
thought abt him for a minute, before i drifted back to sleep.
was glad that finally i am able to get some rest.
however, again, i woke up, i saw another sms.
this time.. frm a different person.
i'm needed at my workplace to cover for someone.
alright. so i agreed to work.
i reached on time. exactly 2pm.
not a second late nor early.
its extremely busy at shop today.
cash register kept ringing continuously.
many stocks arrived too.
while working today, something suddenly struck my mind.
i thought to myself, "its time for me to grow up."
took bus back to JE from BG.
just wanted to feel how would it feels like.. without him beside me.
i sat on that exact seat, with the one next to me.. empty.
bits and pieces of memories ran through my mind, the scenes replaying,
when the bus passed through those ever-familiar streets.
and i felt my vision blurred.
Labels: at work, listless
Friday, September 28, 2007,10:55 PM
was plain happy today.while at work, i just couldn't help feeling happy, also not sure why.. perhaps its bcos its the end of the week.just smiling and grinning away, till i'm also quite stunned with myself.but shit, there's training tml!
urghh..
i knew abt the training for this sat & sun quite long ago. my boss asked me quite a couple of times for me to join as well, but i have zero intention of participating at all. cause the training is conducted by our counterpart in Switzerland, meant especially for the two sales engineers. i dun tink i really need to be present. So i thought maybe i'll drag abit here and there, den just run off on friday, so he wouldn't have a chance of asking. haha. fat hope.
as i'm in charge of all the administration stuffs, there are plenty of chances for him to bring the issue up.
& soon, i found myself in a dilemma as, for every decision, there is an opportunity cost.Then, the way jason phrase it, i also felt quite bad to leave them to face the boss and mr adrian himself. haha. and also, i think its quite good for me to listen to what mr adrian had got to say about the sensors, encoders and stuff, as i know nth abt them.so in the end.. tml have to wake up early again lo.
still gotta meet the two brothers for breakfast first.
tink its gonna be a whole day thingy.
sian, my precious saturday.let's hope i wouldn't yawn too much in front of him when he's talking.
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watched a korean drama just now.
as i was watching, suddenly i felt an emotion so strong.
i can't stop myself frm feeling that way.
its like a piece of my heart is missing.
i miss him ALOT.
and the thought of not being able to see him tml.. i feel my heart is tearing apart, so much it hurts.
Labels: at work, listless
Tuesday, September 25, 2007,11:53 PM
Its Mid-Autumn Festival today.
and I'm all alone.
Candles are burning.
Lanterns are glowing.
Sparklers are lighting.
Air is hazy.
Children are laughing.
Parents are smiling.
Couples are exchanging gazes.
And I'm admiring.
Its Mid-Autumn Festival today.
and I'm sick and all alone.
Labels: listless
Monday, August 20, 2007,5:18 PM
i'm happy, yet at the same time, i felt something isn't right.
things are happening at such a speed that i find it hard to catch up.
its alot more faster than what i want it to be. i kind of regretted what i've done.
i need to put a firm foot down before something (which i don't wish for it to happen) happens.
u might think its nothing, but stand in my shoes & think again.
i kw myself, & i don't want to hear the question coming out of my mouth - again.
its harsh, but that's how its supposed to be. the truth hurts - either party.
i don't want to talk at all.
the whole day, i felt lifeless. don't feel like talking to anyone.
just want to be left alone.
isolated.
peace & quiet is what i want.
just let me stone for as long as i feel like it.
Labels: listless
_-*Shamain*-_
