man.
i've been really happy the past few days, especially friday & saturday =)
spending quality time with you & having you by my side is all that is needed to make me feel contented.
i nv haf thought i'll be able to do this, ya know. i'm still waiting for ur praising =P
now i hafta be his slave for a week =X cos i lost a game to him. humph >_<>
Labels: happy
Thursday, July 26, 2007,11:54 AM
while lying down & readin my HP7 last night, i fell aslp. haha.
surprised that i slept at 10+, near to 11pm. its been long since i've slept that early. jus want to apologise for letting you waited up till so late for nth =X i felt so bad.
i'll make it up to u k, mayb a treat or sth. dun sad le k.. cos i feel what u feel.
nv felt so awake b4. first time in my 3 weeks of working, im not dozing off. wow! really needa sleep early le. mayb i'll achieve a healthier lifestyle. hmm.
i nv exercise for duno how many yrs le. i think must be ever since sec 4. haha. now got Zero stamina.
that night before, i only did 50 sit-ups. my stomach muscles hurts till now, esp when im coughing =,=
that explains how weak am i now.
there is something heavy on my mind, it makes me feel stressful. i, very much wanted to get it off, but someone persuade me to decide against it. then again, perhaps, he isn't aware of my situation.
its hard to bring up that topic. i hope i'll be able to do it today. but.. problem is, which should come first.
Quote of the day: I am only one person, I can only do so much.Labels: rumbling^
Sunday, July 22, 2007,11:11 PM
feeling a lil moody.
not sure what had cause it, though =(
forgot that i cannot haf any cold drink, went to get myself a Giant Slurpee..
haiz, ended up with worse cramp >_<
listening to Elva Hsiao's songs on her first few albums & looking at the lyrics..
all sounded so sad.. which, in turn, adds to my heavy mood ='(
what's with the saying of combating sadness by watching sad dramas, listening to slow sad songs?
all lies =((
i don't want to know which day is it tml.
i don't want to wake up.Labels: moody, sadness
,1:28 AM
Harry Potter CRAZE!
when i was heading to lakeside mrt, it happened that the funeral had just started.. i watched frm afar. i felt sad right then, with what i was seeing..
i kw whatever being said now would be of no use, & would sound stupid & lame. i admit that i cannot empathise fully with you, but i just hope after today, you will get some good rest & cont on with your life fruitfully. in the future, pls dun keep things within urself, can let someone know abt it, even me. will be glad to be your listening ear =)
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went to J8 Popular to collect my HP7 book. finally, its being launched today. been waiting for god knows how long.. haha. super long queue at the Popular. all went to collect their long-awaited HP7, i guessed.
ate at Ajisen Ramen. Oiishi desu =D..
i loved the chewy noodles & the soup more than whatever meat thats inside. its always like this. next time i'll just order plain Ramen with soup =X
happy with myself that i could finish the whole bowl for the first time. but, its quite within my expectation, cos was alrdy feeling slight gastric pain while queuing up for the book. all the hydrochloric acids churning up in my tummy makes it uncomfortable >_<
headed to Causeway to watch HP5 movie! woa.. finally also. haha.. today is like a blast of HP. lol. hmm. good marketing tactics to launch movie & book series at a date close to each other.
the movie.. if i didn't read the book, i tink i wouldn't know what its talking abt, cos everything is happening at a very fast pace..
was wondering if he knows what's going on or not >_<
quite a good movie.. though.. i tink the book is better. hee.
keep yearning to grab one of the Mc Cafe's Double Chocolate. tink i've got myself addicted to it >_<
its so delicious! nv taste anything that nice b4 =D
anyway. i've really got a great day. throughly enjoyed myself, especially with the right companion ;)
honto ni arigato gozaimasu! =D
Labels: fun, happy
Wednesday, July 18, 2007,11:01 PM
i've been feeling so damn pissed off & angry 'on & off' these few days.
she's a total idiot, a bitch & a big asshole. i don't care if i will get any retribution; im sure someone up there can see what's happening all these while.
this bitch.
& your faithful followers. ur very 'pitiful' loved ones... damn it.
really! i have enough of ur nonsense ok. what do u tink ur trying to do all these yrs??? u really want no peace in our life, right. u've alrdy achieved it long ago. so what do u still want? WHAT??? do u find my life too peaceful, that you absolutely hafta create havoc to it?????
don't test my patience. mayb i'll wait, for just another year or so.
come n have a one-on-one with me lar. let me i tell u, im not scared of you. when i've decided to have a go, i'll make sure u'll get what you deserve. i'm just afraid that i might kick you into ur tomb a tad too soon.
don't worry, i won't shed a tear when that day arrives.
when that happens, hopefully, someone will finally wake up frm that curse u've put over his eyes.
ur shit. ur worthless.
this world will be a much nicer place if u just *poof* vanish.
Labels: pissed off
Monday, July 16, 2007,8:41 AM
its so early in the morning.. where some are still in their dreamland. but i'm alrdy at my workplace. Zzz. haha.
-15 July 2007-
Sentosa trip.
couldnt remember what was i waking up for. was it work at lavender? or work at Bugis? or going out with friends? the venue & time? wah. nv felt so blur b4. proves my lack of sleep is making my memory fail. haha.
gathered at lakeside mrt. i reached on time ok! some pig is still cutting his hair when i left home. omg. still claimed that its bcos of some 'past experiences' that made him feel that there is enough time to cut his hair [bcos i'll be late]. wah lao. i'm on time lor. still say, "aye. i kw that ur not Shamain, stop impersonating her. pls ask ur sister to come out." Grr!
X_X almost killed him.
wanted to take monorail frm Vivo after lunch, but ended up wasting more than expected time there. haha. there is this nice, cosy pet shop at Vivo, called the Pet Safari (if im not wrong). its just opposite Tenchi, the anime/games store. you can see alot of hamsters/rabbits/dogs etc in the shop, including delicious-looking pet food. hee.
had a hard time locating the place to take the monorail. found it after walking one BIG round. we were like.. wah lao.. hahaha.
the monorail is better than the shuttle bus, as in, it takes u str. to the various locations (beach, merlion etc)
finally reached underwater world after walking passed siloso beach, & under the scorching sun. (sweats....) >_<"
quite enjoyable inside cos its cooling. haha. saw a wide range of sea creatures. some fascinating creatures like the 'sea angel', that i've nv seen b4 =) spent at least 2 hrs inside taking all sorts of photos.
when we came out, i've got a shock. haha. someone suddenly put a fat snake on guanlun's shoulder. n he's only standing behind me. wah lao. when i realised, i jumped away, almost comically >_<. luckily that person nv put the snake on me, otherwise.. he die. haha. no lar.. actually, i tink i'll sprint back home at TOP speed liao - which is good, save transport fees >_<
went to siloso beach to walked on the sand & feel the heat. felt all sticky & yucky >_<
wanted to take the Sentosa luge & Cinemax. but didn't go in the end. was a lil' disappointed. haha.
had dinner at vivo again. this time at 2Hot cafe. this is the 1st time, & also gg to be the last time. bcos their service sucks. i ordered seafood marinara & repeated at least twice that i wanted spaghetti when asked for the choice of pasta. instead, they served one other type of pasta (fettuccini) that looked somewhat like dried meepok -,-
when i told them they had got the order wrong, the person took it back. den i saw the chef telling him what to tell us. he came back w the same plate & said that "we've run out of spaghetti, is it ok for u to take this?" den i'm like... what the hell. but still, i said ok. haha. deacon asked why i agreed to it, cos he actually wanted to answer him, "if that's so, why wasn't i informed." den.. haiz. even when i said ok to that person, i gave him that super irritated face. & i remained v. pissed off for the rest of the time in the cafe. i dun tink is they dun wan to change for me & not that they dun haf spaghetti. even if they dun haf, they shld tell me beforehand. damn. the more i tink, the more i got pissed off, so just kept quiet & eat throughout dinner. sry guys for showing my attitude, even though i knew you were being nice, tryin to offer me your fish & chips, but i've really got no appetite liao. haha. i'm angry lei. stupid me, why i must agreed to haf that plate of 'mee pok dry' pasta. gags. pissed off with myself too. urghh.
seeing that the time is still early, i've recovered immediately frm my irritated mood. told them that im gg bugis to meet a friend. wah lao. insisted on coming along. tagged me up to the lvl 3 toilet. i spent a long time inside, so they went off first. hahaha =P
P.S. darren, ur missing out all the fun man. everytime so wrong timing de. boo!
damn shag nowadays.. can fall asleep anywhere... anytime... any position... LOL.
Labels: fun, general, pissed off, tired
Friday, July 13, 2007,12:27 AM
I'd Love You To Want Me (by Lobo)
When I saw you standing there
I about fell off my chair
When you moved your mouth to speak
I felt the blood go to my feet
Now it took time for me to know
What you tried so not to show
Something in my soul just cried
I see the want in your blue eyes
Chorus :
Baby, I'd love you to want me
The way that I want you
The way that it should be
Baby, you'd love me to want you
The way that I want to
If you'd only let it be
You told yourself years ago
You'd never let your feelings show
The obligation that you made
For the title that they gave
- quite a nice song that i've come across.
Thursday, July 12, 2007,11:00 PM
blog = online diary
what's the use of having a blog when u can't post everything that's in your mind over here?
.. when you can't speak your mind freely..
talk abt it being a diary; a personal space.. oh, a whole load of craps.
Wednesday, July 11, 2007,10:28 PM
tiring day for me. i tink im gg to fall sick again. & yes, although i hafnt recover frm my sore throat.. hmm. its getting worse. suddenly woke up at 3+am last night cos got some serious flu & my throat is super itchy. that feeling is really horrible. couldn't get back to slp. so took some panadol & ate a slice of cake b4 finally getting back to slp.
only my 3rd day & im alrdy lidat. im sure its bcos i din get enuff slp.
i'm so damn weak. haiz..
anyway. made so much blunders at work today. even being commented that im 'blur like sotong'. not for once but at least thrice, i tink. haiz.. am v. sad & disappointed with myself. why am i like this.
i admit i'm very forgetful. i know one day, my forgetfulness will surely get me into serious trouble. but of cos i hope that day wouldn't come.
i hope i can get well soon bcos i'll still need to withstand for at least another 3 more days b4 i can get some rest.
Sat & Sun!! can you arrive just a little faster? i'm almost dying.
& TIME. pls pass real fast when you're supposed to & crawl slowly, in the right situation? ok?
Labels: tired
Monday, July 09, 2007,9:42 PM
1st day of work at a new company.
have forgotten how cold it is inside office (especially my side of the office), so didn't bring along my sweater. its like.. freezing cold. finally cannot tahan, need to borrow frm Clara. haha. thanks ya. otherwise i think i'll bcum a block of ice after 9 hours.
really impressed at how i managed to get up at 6am today. *winks* =D tink its been a good five years ever since i wake up at this 'dead of the night'. LOL. so damn tired. realised that i've reached too early so i decided to just nap a while inside Lavender MRT station. haha.
even when having meeting in the morning, i had to, with all my might, keep my eyes open. my eyelids seemed to weigh a ton. they are glued shut -.-
u kw how hard it is, when the boss is introducing you to the rest of the colleagues & you are trying to keep urself awake with the hope of not letting ppl realise that ur actually ready to drift off to lalaland in any minute.. >_<
kept thinking abt the Tom & Jerry cartoon that i've seen ages ago.. Tom actually used toothpicks to hold up his eyelids. LOL!! that was hilarious. can't imagine me doing that.
really nv felt so sleepy in my life before. was thinking that i'll give anything to coil back into my cozy bed. *yawns*
abit lost in the morning.. just wandering around in the office, drifting to the different sections.. haha. cos all were too busy to teach me anything.. after lunch, finally got sth to do liao. haha. den was happily chatting with someone on MSN, that i didn't even realise that its time to pack & go alrdy. lol. they telling me that, "hey, u dun wan to go back ar. overhere no overtime pay de lei." haha. as if i didn't know.
hmm.. needa sleep early liao. otherwise, the same thing will happen tml again. haha.
anyway, its a good habit to sleep early, isn't it?
*yawnZz* hee.Labels: at work, tired
Saturday, July 07, 2007,12:12 AM
who knows how i'm feeling all inside?
when i can't voice out.
when im not able to.
when im deprived of a chance to.
when im TOTALLY NOT given a choice.
who knows how i'm feeling all inside?
- im feeling terrible -
its pain beyond words.
i'm dying.
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what kind of shit have i gotten myself into.
what kind of shit.
i'm tired of these. tired of...
really. what am i trying to do.
i'm not the only human living; so its not only me who will be dragged into these mess & get hurt.
they are all innocent. who knows what i want.
i can't even make up my own mind.
i really would like nothing better than to disappear frm all these.
Labels: ~心事~
Thursday, July 05, 2007,11:43 PM
Winning a guy's heart isn't the final victory.
Don't leave him once you've got him.
Love him all the way till the end of time,
& you'll earned the honor & respect for your true love.
He choose you because he believed that you can fulfil your promise.
Win his heart & love him over.
Remember, the guy isn't a trophy for display.
He's someone to love, not to show off to your friends.
Stay humble yet be proud that he's the one for you.
Respect him for the way he is,
never despise him & never mistreat him, never think of toying him.
[[ L O V E ]]
Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you
of how much he cares about you
and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends
and says, "...that's her."
[adapted frm dearest Mei2's webbie =D ]Labels: general
Wednesday, July 04, 2007,1:13 AM
haiyo..
today. everyone seems to be so emotional.
is it caused by some kind of force field? or some shifting in the stars? (i wonders ..)
anyway..
someone got me into tears a couple of times today. haha.
tears bcos i felt touched & also the feeling of some .. reluctance.
only till now, did i realised how much i missed the days we had .. & how ..
it will never be the same anymore.
oh shit.
my eyes are watery, now as i'm typing my blog. haha.
& it took a turn for the worse..
crying as in .. really crying out.
its ridiculous how i just can't seem to stop.
` missing the days when we shared jokes
- ` missing the days when we had all the fun
- - ` missing ...... you
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i need my daily dose of chocolate badly.
especially those.. RICH chocolate - coated sponge cakes. FULL chocolate!
just imagine .. when u take a little bite into it - warm chocolate starts to flow out ........
Oh My Goodness~ why am i tempting myself.
i'm needing you badly to cope with my mood now.
Labels: moody, sadness
Monday, July 02, 2007,5:41 PM
- coughing non-stop.
its terrible.
*cough cough*
little wonder..
why it don't seems to get better, but got worse instead.
nv take any medicine, yet, carried on eating chocolate chip cookies, pringles, cadbury chocolates, Lays potato chips & all other junk foods... plus sleeping late. humph.
hahaha. so think i can't complain also.
just hope i'll get better by tml.
don't think there is anyone who's not likely to get irritated when hearing someone who keeps clearing her throat continuously while talking.
"ERm. eRm. erM. ERM...."
'tsk tsk.'
O_o... LOL!
drinking my fave jasmine milk tea now.
hahaha.. getting fatter liaoZ >_<
haiz.. can't help it. simply can't resist it.
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Sunday, July 01, 2007,11:16 PM
felt so wasted today.
woke up at around 315pm. eat - bath - den back to taking a nap.
yet now, i'm still feeling tired.
& my sorethroat. it still hafnt recover. hmm.
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kept wondering how is work today at shop.
what are they doing right now, busy or not etc..
its like they are having all the fun, but i'm missing out on them.
haiz.....
haha.
i'm feeling kinda lost now.
so no life - now that i've got absolutely nothing to do, i even had to think hard on what i shld do in the next min. just feel like sleeping day after day.......
mayb i'll go back work as part-time. haha.
want to employ me not. lol.Labels: boring, tired
_-*Shamain*-_
