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Saturday, September 29, 2007,12:06 AM

妈的..
i don't like to talk to f**kers.
mother of all idiots.
shit.
asshole.
ma de.
KNS.
don't push me to the extreme, you'll regret.

Labels: pissed off

Friday, September 28, 2007,10:55 PM

was plain happy today.
while at work, i just couldn't help feeling happy, also not sure why.. perhaps its bcos its the end of the week.
just smiling and grinning away, till i'm also quite stunned with myself.

but shit, there's training tml!
urghh..
i knew abt the training for this sat & sun quite long ago. my boss asked me quite a couple of times for me to join as well, but i have zero intention of participating at all. cause the training is conducted by our counterpart in Switzerland, meant especially for the two sales engineers. i dun tink i really need to be present. So i thought maybe i'll drag abit here and there, den just run off on friday, so he wouldn't have a chance of asking. haha. fat hope.
as i'm in charge of all the administration stuffs, there are plenty of chances for him to bring the issue up.
& soon, i found myself in a dilemma as, for every decision, there is an opportunity cost.
Then, the way jason phrase it, i also felt quite bad to leave them to face the boss and mr adrian himself. haha. and also, i think its quite good for me to listen to what mr adrian had got to say about the sensors, encoders and stuff, as i know nth abt them.
so in the end.. tml have to wake up early again lo.
still gotta meet the two brothers for breakfast first.
tink its gonna be a whole day thingy.
sian, my precious saturday.
let's hope i wouldn't yawn too much in front of him when he's talking.

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watched a korean drama just now.
as i was watching, suddenly i felt an emotion so strong.
i can't stop myself frm feeling that way.
its like a piece of my heart is missing.
i miss him ALOT.
and the thought of not being able to see him tml.. i feel my heart is tearing apart, so much it hurts.

Labels: at work, listless

Tuesday, September 25, 2007,11:53 PM

Its Mid-Autumn Festival today.
and I'm all alone.

Candles are burning.
Lanterns are glowing.
Sparklers are lighting.
Air is hazy.
Children are laughing.
Parents are smiling.
Couples are exchanging gazes.
And I'm admiring.

Its Mid-Autumn Festival today.
and I'm sick and all alone.

Labels: listless

Monday, September 24, 2007,8:34 PM

what a busy day.
frm the moment i stepped into the office, i've been on the phone.
i'm required to book the hotels for our overseas client, started with hotels like Royal@ Queen's, Garden Hotel etc.
i panicked when i realised all the intended hotels are fully booked. oh shit. stressed.
so stressed that i only took less than 10mins of lunch.
i think most of you share this experience of not being able to eat in peace when there is sth heavy weighing on the mind.

searched online frantically for all the hotels available.
and made calls frm morning till after lunch to enquire for room availability.
my efforts have not gone dw in the drain as finally managed to secure rooms for them.
but that has caused my alrdy hurting throat to be even drier and its hurting like mad and in turn, caused my ear to itch inside.
the feeling is extremely irritating.
this, however, cldn't stop me frm eating the delicious Swiss chocolates that our guest from Berlin had bought for our company.
wow.. its super delicious, thick & milky. hmmm yum~

i've learnt to take things as it comes. i feel its very impt and am constantly reminding myself not to worry unnecessarily, bcos what you are worrying might not happen. and whatever happens, you can take it one step at a time. the problem will eventually be solved somehow.
and that's when you know you've given your best, so there is no pt keeping the issue on your mind, giving yourselves needless stress.
there will always be a path made available for you.

the higher your hopes, the greater the disappointment.

Labels: at work, general, shamain's theory*

Friday, September 21, 2007,4:39 PM

hah. the customer in M'sia called me up regarding his replacement items.
hais.. he don't sound rude at all over the phone lei.
die liao..
make me feel so bad. hais =X

die liao.. die liao.. 惨了.. 惨了..

Labels: at work

Thursday, September 20, 2007,3:41 PM

this customer from Malaysia was requesting for 3 replacement items. but i felt he was quite rude over the email. so although i know that he needs them really urgently, i still send it via Singpost, and not any other courier such as TNT/DHL etc.. but after i went home after posting, i felt so uneasy. hmm.. can't even get to slp.. kept thinking abt it, cos if really the customer flared up & complain, i won't be the only one who kena.. the first person will be the sales engineer in Malaysia.. hais. but of cos, all fingers will point to me then. but felt bad to drag him into this.
haha. too bad lor, when i tried to retrieve the item b4 Singpost dispatch it, the cost is so high, so bo bian lo. i'm not the pilot whose controlling the plane (he is saying it as if i have the power to control the speed of the shipment). what to do, they can only get it next week, mayb on wednesday or so.. lol.. if use courier, i tink they might get it either today or tml. haha.

the conclusion is: who ask him to be rude. X_X

Labels: at work

Tuesday, September 18, 2007,10:53 AM

misunderstood.
frustrated.
unhappy.
fretted.
pissed.
lost.
tired.
uneasy.
insecured.
unadaptable.
miscommunication.

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It's so unbelievable

And I don't want to let it go

Something so beautiful

Flowing down like a waterfall

I feel like you've always been

Forever a part of me

And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love

Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

Thursday, September 13, 2007,11:59 PM

@Chinese Garden last night with Saiful. i was the one who suggested it. hahas. of course, its the Mid Autumn Festival with all the lighting up of lantern, thats why i wanted to go. otherwise, i would want to go there. so warm & sweaty. lol.

Theme of this year: Magical Ocean

Been late alrdy when we reached.. tink its abt 920pm if i'm not wrong. so there wasn't much ppl around. which was good as its so hot & humid, i can't imagine if there are crowds squeezing ard. oh man, just by thinking, it sucks.

wow~ been quite some time since i carried a lantern. brought back bits of childhood memories. it was quite fun but the candle that they provided was so tiny, that it last for ard 30mins or lesser =(
even b4 the candle was going out, being so playful, he decided to burn his lantern on purpose, when he saw ppl's lantern burning (which was an accident).
hahaha. i don't know what to say lo. like a kid being given a candy =P *chuckles*

hmm~ overall quite an experience lar.
so if you are into celebrating, just alight at Chinese Garden MRT and walk down the path. Just remember to bring tons of drinking water and a mat if you want to chit-chat and have ur little mooncake party over there.
alright, i'm kidding abt the mat and picnic thingy.
just bring water, yourself & some great companion.
*Enjoy* =D

Labels: fun

Monday, September 10, 2007,4:37 PM

me & the rest of my colleagues went to visit Bee Leng at Gleneagles during our lunch time.
Congratulations to her! a newborn baby boy =D
he's so adorable & cute.. and he looks exactly like her!
but can see that's he going to be a very active & playful boy, cos he kept swinging his fist, kicking his legs & pull out his baby glove even though he is only 1 day old. lol.
he makes those baby voices too, as if he's trying to ask us to hush & not disturb his sleep. hee.
hahas.. almost all the girls who were there, displayed motherly instinct the minute their eyes were set on the baby. lol~
haha.. if really want, just go & have one lo. then you can hug your baby for 24/7. lol!
i don't dare to hug the baby, cos he is so small and feels like marshmallow. wahaha.. his skin is so thin & soft that even the tag tied on his legs can make red blotchy marks on him. for a clumsy person like me, who nv handle any babies before, i might hurt him badly =(

so fortunate to have so many ppl fussing over him when he's born. lucky guy.. hahas. i think his sister is gg to be jealous! nevertheless, i'm sure this bundle of joy will bring loads of happiness to his family. esp, the mum who painstakingly endured for 10months, just to show him this colourful world.

Labels: general

,11:05 AM

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Flora aka Laggy, gg Doha today for her training. Thus, we had a little gathering at Tampines - dinner at Bali Thai. Quite a number of our poly classmates and friends turned up.

Wow.. its been long since we got together, me & laggy had so much to talk about. but sadly, she might only be back after two long years. hais.

of course, we took plenty of photos, which she promised to send them to me. hahas.

some funny plus a or two gross and hair-standing photos.. wahahas.

huali & jerry who took photos for us also got goosebumps. hehehe..

just before the dinner commences, jerry gave flora a surprise by presenting her with a big bouquet of flowers.. which is so sweet =)

the food at Bali Thai is hmm~ satisfactory. i like their seafood tom yum soup. however, their serving is quite little. so don't worry about ordering too much. hahas.

pricing wise, they have average restaurant prices $20-$40/dish.

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experiencing a sulky mood today.
the weather did not help by welcoming me with a heavy rain the minute i stepped out of the hse.
i wonders if i'm having moodswing.. i have always dread monday bcos of working. however, it has come to such an extreme. just a casual glance at my watch last night, i plunged into moodiness. i knew monday isn't far. as much as i tried to contain myself, i broke into uncontrollable sobs. being so stupid, exaggerating, and ridiculous u might think, but it happened. the only possible blame would be the stupid moodswing, plus sth else which i didn't say out ='(

here i am, sitting in the office. its the start of the week again..
and monday really sucks like hell.. so does tuesday. wednesday isn't any better, its like hanging in the middle of nowhere. thursday sucks too, bcos there is still another day to go. friday.. ok. friday, please come and pass fast.

Labels: general, moody

Tuesday, September 04, 2007,2:34 PM

SHUCKS!!!!

all the 3 pieces of clothings that i've ordered & paid for is Out Of Stock!

BOO~!!! >_<

so sads.. tot i'll have some new clothes to look forward to this week. what's worse, all 3 are my favourite so far.. hais.

omg~ laggy is flying off to a faraway country this friday.. hais..

leaving me behind, to fulfil her air stewardess dream.

she had betta not forget me >_<

gonna miss her. she's the only one who is even more laggy than me..

now that she's not here, i'll have to take up the first place le. hmm~ things don't look good. hahas.

hope she wouldn't be too laggy over there though..

"i know we are alike.. however, pls don't sulk & cry whenever you face any problem or feel that you have suffered any injustices (as i knew both of us do =)). if you have to, promise you'll come back stronger than before.

newbies are bound to be bullied to a certain extent. since you have chosen to walk down this path.. you've be strong. i know that you are in many ways better than me, such as being independent and matured.

keep me updated on your life over in doha. i'll love to hear all the interesting things that is happening in your life.

last but not least, i'll miss you :)"

Labels: general

Monday, September 03, 2007,4:26 PM

back to work again.
having blues as usual.
the reason why ppl will have blues is mainly bcos they had too much fun over the weekends. well, at least its true for me. hahas.
& the weather plays a part too.. how to work, when the weather is meant for Zzz.. =(
just hoping i'll have loads to do in the 9hrs of my work everyday.
while i'm being occupied by work, the weekdays will pass in a blink of the eye =)

wondering if i shld go for dental appointment too. been so long since i last bcum a victim of teeth diggers & stealers. hais.. really giving serous thoughts abt going. however, the minute i think of it, i'll be shivering at the thought of the evil-faced monster flashing its wide big grin, forcing my mouth open, digging, drilling & tugging at my teeth.
absolutely hated the smell of their rubber gloves. yucks.. & not forgetting to mention the strong smell that hit your nostrils the minute you step into the cold room.
hais.. psychological trauma. shit. all thanks to the idiotic dentist in my primary sch, which i still see nowadays when i'm on my way to work. what a luck.
its a nightmare!!

Labels: at work, rumbling^