Everyday StoriesYYY
Thursday, February 28, 2008,4:02 PM
201th Post!
this is my 201th blog entry... ever since October 2006.
wow~ that is like so long ago, i was still studying in poly then.
i've got not much appetite these days during lunch.
most of the time, i'll only finish half the portion.
and when the time for lunch has passed.. say about an hour later, i'll start to search for anything edible.
an irregular eating habit i have, and i should say that is not very healthy.
haha. i think i'm more health-conscious right now as compared to the past.
so its true then, this health conscious thingy that someone has told me before.
"as you grow older, you will tend to be more conscious of your health. its natural."
my hp has gone bonkers, i think the main problem is the memory card.
maybe some of the files are corrupted or sth.
my only worry is those files (songs, photos etc) that meant sth special to me.
they are the only physical things that allow me to recall back those precious memories.
and i don't want to lose them.
if i off my hp, and try to restart it, it will take about... nearly one hour to be switched on.
it is damn irritating if you are in the middle of a conversation/sms-ing, or waiting for something important etc. you will get really pissed off.
my hp seemed to be giving me more problem than usual today.. so i have no choice but to restart it. and how much time has it passed now? hmm.. 2hours? and it hasn't start up yet. i can almost feel 'it' battling inside the tiny hp compartment. (whatever 'it' is).
err.. to anyone who might have fallen asleep reading this blog entry.
my apologies for not giving a warning at the start.
anyway, i just had too much time on hand.
duh.
Labels: rumbling^
Tuesday, February 26, 2008,11:28 PM
my life is being OVERLY CONTROLLED!!!!
each time when i'm angry and while trying to contain myself, i can feel myself shaking. drawing in quick, sharp breath. my heart pumping hard & wildly. and true to the statement, i can somehow feel my blood boiling. my face gets real hot, and almost... can feel steam coming out of my ears.
i felt so restricted and restrained.
i'm being treated everything
but like a 21yrs old adult should be.
i've got NO freedom.
everything is a 'NO'!
this --> no!
that --> cannot!
Please please please..........
stop treating me like a small kid.
i can say whatever reasons to defend my case but, somehow or rather, i know each sentence that i may make, will get shoot down by at least 10 other reasons.
i'm already an adult, i have a life of my own. why is it that you are the one ruling my life???
correct me if i'm wrong in saying that this is the 21st century.
or are we still living in the olden days?
arrghhh.. no use saying this, i can already hear your immediate
reactions now.
blame myself for having this kind of life, a life which is being
carefully plotted and planned by someone in advance.
i have NO say!!!!!!Labels: pissed off, rumbling^
Wednesday, February 20, 2008,12:41 AM
i hate myself
i like this blogskin alot, mainly because it has rainbow, plus bright, colourful pictures.
however, my recent life is far from it.
it feels like my world is turned upside down.
like a roller-coaster.. but mostly it is down in the pits.
my mood is a disaster.
even i can't stand myself, but even knowing it, i still can't help it.
i'll jump at the slightest thing, even the tiniest spark can set me ablaze.
hereby, i sincerely apologise to those who are affected by me, being given the cold-shoulder or got pissed at when they are innocent.
what the hell is wrong with me.
someone help me please.
Labels: moody
Monday, February 18, 2008,10:47 AM
Breaking Down
the weekend seems to fly pass in the blink of an eye, soon it is monday again.
alot of things have been running through my mind these few days.
well.. i'm a pessimistic person by nature. all these negative thoughts are really bothering me, its driving me crazy.
all the 'what if', 'maybe', 'can it be'... each time, my stomach will give an involuntary lurch. the only way i can stop all these thinkings is to sleep.
because the minute i'm awake, my brain will start thinking non-stop. therefore, i just forced myself back to sleep.
these are really bothering me alot. making me depressed and such. but to stop it, is easier said than done. because, my mind is acting as if it has a life of its own.
i do not know how to help myself.
Thursday, February 14, 2008,12:27 AM
CNY '08
cny 2008 feels just like any other normal days; only that i've got quite a long break from work.
normally, each year before cny, i'll get excited and buy plenty of chocolates and candies, not forgetting to mention love letters, pineapple tarts, cookies etc. soon, every inch of my long coffee table at the living room will be filled with all the goodies.
however, this year is an exception.
don't really have the new yr mood. not sure why too.
anyway..
it has come to my favourite time of the day.
i'm off to bed; tml is going to be boring and dull.
have a joyous & prosperous 2008!Labels: general
_-*Shamain*-_
