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Sunday, November 25, 2007,6:03 PM

harsh reality

this is me.
i will point things out - once and for all.
sometimes, i might repeat myself, a second time.

but that is all i would do.
if there aren't any changes made, i would not repeat myself again.
i would leave things as it is.
this applies to almost all the stuffs in life - be it small or major.

i've said my piece.
i've done my part.
when things come to a point where there is no turning back, where no amount of things done could help reduce the hurt caused, or to save the situation.. that's it.

,4:00 PM

all about dramas - once again

i've changed my blogskin.
saw one that's really nice and shows exactly how i feel; but too bad, its too complicated. after trying for so hard, had to give up in the end.

anyway, I strongly recommend the movie "Enchanted". The latest movie by Walts Disney.
Its hilarious and the chipmunk is super cute. the prince is damn stupid, bird-brain i think. hahah.. The story plot had its twists and turns. Not forgetting to mention that this movie breaks the tradition that the princess remains steadfast in her relationship and marry the prince in the end. the princess got a chance of heart! LOL~ although, of course, its still a 'and everyone lives happily ever after' ending.

Watching TWO Taiwan dramas currently..

i watched romantic princess until episode 10.. i thought that episode 10 was the last epi, so i was kinda happy that the drama was finally ending and i can get over with it.. but.. wth.. the movie script was being lengthen till epi 13. hais.. must be due to the overwhelming responses by the audiences. its always been like this. don't know what is so nice about this drama, its too unrealistic. i know that almost all the dramas and movies are very imaginative and things that happen inside the show will not happen in reality. however, this drama is the worse - too extreme.
heard ppl saying that this drama is a dream come true for all girls..

THINK..
"a poor girl who has to school and work PT at the same time, wake up one day and found herself to be the one and only granddaughter of the richest man in Taiwan. Not only that, she is also being surrounded by 4 charming guys, whom are the dreams of all girls. And among the four, one (the most handsome) is the fiance of the girl."

this drama will only leave you sulking even more about your own life.
so unrealistic.
to add to it, the story plot is not funny at all.. now that the last episode is being held till #13, i can guarantee that it will be even the more draggy.
the soundtrack is nice though.. especially the song by Angela Zhang - "bu xiang dong de"

the 2nd one being Huan Huan Ai (换换爱）(think the English title is Why Why Love, if i'm not mistaken).
hmm.. this show is much nicer. the main character had also just passed her 20th birthday in the show. haha. but i couldn't comment much on this, as i'm only up to my 3rd episode.

i've no life now, back to what i am half a year ago.
catching dramas like there is no day and night.
*sighs..*
and i've bought 2 dresses.. and i'm very happy with them!!
wahahahaha =D
at least something to brighten up my mundane life.

Labels: drama

Friday, November 23, 2007,11:03 PM

super hard to keep myself awake at work today.
to the extent that i can even fall asleep while sitting inside the toilet. haha.

the medicine must be taking effect on me.
however, it seems to be working like a sleeping pill instead of helping me with my allergy.
because my rashes isn't improving, its still as itchy as before.
urghh, trying hard not to scratch too much (don't want someone to have the chance to call me a Monkey). but its hard, too itchy, my neck, shoulders, back, thighs.. all kena =(

itchiness.. be gone!

Monday, November 19, 2007,10:40 AM

The month which i've always looked forward to each and every year, has ceased to be this year.
i used to love christmas, even though i don't really celebrate.
the glamorous lightings, the cheery christmas songs and carols played in every shop, they build up the feel of the season of giving..
each yr, i've always been in a joyous mood whenever christmas is approaching.

but now..
i hate December. i hate Christmas!!
everytime i entered a shop, i would nv fail to hear the christmas carol playing, it would only get me feeling all lonely and teary ='(

i guessed Christmas this yr, i would be spending it all alone.
and perhaps, for another few years ahead.
not forgetting my birthday, which is some days apart from Christmas too.

i don't know how long i can take this.

Labels: moody

Thursday, November 15, 2007,10:24 PM

was feeling down the other day. had some disagreements and was upset.
however, the opportunity raised for me to voiced out a thousand and one things. i felt so relieved after that, as all these had been kept within me for a long time.
then, i tried not to think too much of it. just tried to remain normal and calm.

the following day, was super busy right from the time i started work. there was tons of stocks arriving, hence was preparing for deliveries to different customers and countries. time passed fast and before i knew it, its past lunchtime. its good that im kept busy, so i wouldn't let my mind wander too much.

nearing 6pm, received a call from bb.. asked me to go to the washroom outside my office. i was like, what!!.. pissed off 'cause im kinda fretting over my report which was in a mess.
i got out, and i saw him.. standing there.. like some sort of angel.. i realised i miss him. he came.. just to cheer me up and of course, my mood lifted just by the sight of him.. he promised me things, and im glad he's willing to make positive changes.

"bb.. it was a really sweet surprise you've given me.
not because of what u gave me that day.. but because it was totally unexpected!
cos i knew u were working, so it did not cross my mind at all that you would come to look for me, even when u asked me to go out to the washroom, i did not suspect anything. although i did not show it out, but i want to let you know that.. i was very touched. my tears almost betrayed me, but was lucky i held them back."

then, i knew i couldn't bear to let him go alone, just like that, asked him to wait for 5mins, while i ran in to packed up. heck that stupid report. can just do it another day.. nth is more impt then my bb.

Labels: *in love*

Wednesday, November 07, 2007,11:23 PM

bloody hell.
just had a heated argument with my idiotic bro.
to think that I just bought a shirt for him. i must've been out of my mind.

seriously, its a wrong move to go to JP and also the post office located in the shopping mall after 8pm. and especially so when tomorrow is a certain festive holiday. lol~ sry, i'm being a little racist here. anyway, i went inside the post office at nearing 8pm. even just before i went inside, there was a queue much longer than usual - it was jam-packed (can be detected with both sense of sight and smell) with all the erm.. foreign workers, waiting patiently to (i assume) send money back to their countries. lucky me, few minutes after i stepped inside, the staffs started to shut the shutter. and then, as expected, alot of foreign workers were standing outside the post office.. and i mean alot... it came across my mind as the resident evil game - where the living deads would claw on the metal gates, trying to break it apart, while you managed to escape to the other side, safe for the time being. lol..
it was quite a scene actually. and as the staffs open the gate for ppl inside to exit, some of them got into the office.. the staffs were trying hard to hold them back.. i was watching the whole time, so engrossed that i didn't even hear the person at the counter telling me the amount of fee. i think she might have been repeating it for at least 3 times.. lol~ talk about being embarrassed.
afterthat, my mind was thinking how am i supposed to get out of this place.. when it was so chaotic outside.. haha, but fortunately, when the staffs were arguing with those workers (heard sth abt calling the security), i managed to sneak out of that place. quite an eye-opener. hahas.
its not everyday you are able to see this.
i sympathise with them though.. because some might have just rushed to the post office from work to send money back to their families for deepavali tomorrow =X ended up, they were rejected outside the office and told to come back only on friday.

that was not all.. every place where a single ATM is available, you will see a super duper long queue of (again) those foreign workers; regardless of whether its Maybank/Citibank/POSB etc.. especially near the MRT control station.. i really thought i had been teleported to India (no offence.. haha) because, 'anywhere you turned to, every corner, every entrance, every exit, every where, left, right, center..' you are surrounded by them, and you aren't able to see any other races other than them.

well.. happy deepavali to them..
the festival of light.. haha
anyway, quite pity them again, how come their festival only one day a year only. lol.

all in all, it was very chaotic at JP today..

Labels: funny

Monday, November 05, 2007,3:52 PM

was practically suffering for the whole of last week due to some unknown reasons that were hurting my tummy badly.
i woke up everyday, thinking of getting MC on that day itself, but in the end still went to work. all because i thought the stocks are coming in. day after day, the goods kept delaying..
finally on thursday, the pain was too much, i couldn't take it anymore. instead of going to JP post office to register post, i alighted at JE and went straight into the clinic.
Luckily, i did not have to wait long before its my turn.
Well.. i don't really understand what the doctor is saying. but, all i managed to catch is that i had some contaminated food which made virus in my stomach and in turn caused wind - bloated feeling in the tummy. and also due to my irregular eating habits. waited till i'm very hungry, den overstuff myself. but, i realised that i get hungry very easily recently.. can't possibly expect me to have my lunch at 10am right..
i think i've recovered alrdy. if i had known, i would have visited the doctor on monday, instead of dragging till thursday. even so, i'll still need to keep track on my diet and not to eat excessively full/not eat at all.

now got another problem liao. this must be my unlucky month =(
but this time, i don't need a doctor, i can dignose myself.
i cannot smell anything =X which is both good and bad.
my ear is inflamed. know that irritating feeling of itch, yet can't scratch it because its piercingly painful if you stick your finger in it. urghh.. help!
symptons: flu/blocked nose/sorethroat
analysis: i've caught a cold and also abit heaty.

i'm a certified doctor!!
believe it or not. cn look for me, will charge you cheaper than prevailing rates.

**pls note: i'm not liable for any error or outcome caused by my more than often inaccurate dignoses =X

and btw.. i owe someone an apology.
for jumping into some silly conclusion and in turn causing some misunderstanding.
i put the blame on the virus thats creating havoc in my tummy the other time.
sorry =X

Labels: general, rumbling^

Friday, November 02, 2007,1:48 PM

i have a wish.

how i wish it will come true.

i'll be thrilled, excited and elated if it is granted.

but.. i know that it is not possible, at least for another few years.