Everyday StoriesYYY
Sunday, December 30, 2007,11:26 PM
My 20th Birthday
This year, my birthday is a mixture of emotions.
I thought if that person does not celebrate my birthday for me, so be it. but i'm wrong, i was really hurt. because this has never happen before. then, deep down inside, i'm silently waiting for that someone to wish me happy birthday. but it never came. it seems that the person had even forgotten my birthday. it is so disappointing.
Thank you to those who remembered my birthday (even those whom i've not met up for some time) and sent me those lovely birthday wishes. it makes me so touched and brightened up my birthday, which i've spent alone at home.
My birthday cake - fave: Chocolate!!! with no cream =)
Multi-layered, different forms/textures of chocolates between two layers of crunchy biscuits =p..Thank you to my beloved friends who are willing to fork out a day of their busy life to celebrate my birthday for me. Although i did not say it out, i'm very grateful towards you all.
though it is a belated celebration, but because of you all, my birthday is not alone, well-spent and all the more memorable.
Labels: birthday
,3:02 AM
Being A Capricorn
Characteristics of a CapricornOnce she is mad she can be very fierce. She can work better than some men and she is a very highly confident woman. In her opinion, woman is not just a flower or decoration at home or at the office and certainly not a weak sex who needs protection.She likes to control and hide her weak emotions. She will never try to change anyone, but she will learn to accept them as they are. If she does not like someone, she will not comment or criticize but she will completely ignore that person.She hate plastic and artificial flower because it makes her feel that you are not being sincere. She loves real flower and it's scent. She loves a guy who wear after shave cologne. If you are the type of a guy who wear your jeans one month before washing, or wear an old sneakers, then you can forget about her. She loves music and nature even there is a rare case otherwise. She loves to go picnic in nature, so if you don't have so much time for her, you can take her fishing too. She is not as jealous as Aquarius or Leo woman, but do not cross the line O.K. Better not to see she gets mad, especially in front of public when she feels like losing face. She loves to make-up and dress perfectly and being neat, so never rush her for this matter. She has her own goal in life and does not care if you have a doctorate degree or not, if she thinks you are not bright then she will not care about you at all. She likes smart people by character not by certificate shown. If you can not show her this quality, go and take a bus and go to the next stop. She does not like a dreamer who talks about his dream but never put his hands in action to make it happen. Don't bother to tell her "everyone is doing it, you should do it too", or "I think you should do it, it's good for you", because she will only do what she wants to do. She is a neat and tidy person, so if your apartment is a pigsty, do not take her there. If you go out on a date with her , try to be presentable such as wearing a nice clean shirt and jeans, clean nails or else it will be your last date. She is the cool type and will not nag, so easy on your ears. She is a slow but sure type. She will always respect and honor you and will never try to make you lose your face. If she loves you, she will help you in anything you do. She likes to help people and expect nothing in return. But if she asks you for a favor and does not get one, she will feel very disappoint. She has a high hope and a high faith and beliefs in her own confident than believing in "Luck". If she is your wife, you will have nice and clean home and a gourmet cooking. If your parents visit your house, they will be pleased. She is a 3 in 1 means , a perfect mother, a perfect daughter, a perfect wife or you could say "happily ever after". How true are these, i do not know.
Why don't you tell me.
Labels: Horoscope
Friday, December 28, 2007,8:50 PM
I'm A Flower, Soaking In The Rain
So When Will I See Your Face Again,
When Will You Touch My Life Again,
When Will I Breathe You In Again,
I Think I Love You...Will I See Your Face Again..
(this song is highly addictive..)
Its true when you are moody, you will spend money like nothing.
so please avoid passing by any shops.
lucky thing that the shop i went into only sells all kinds of food and tidbits.
so all those food aren't wasted as i'm going to finish them all.
cheers to junk food!
Labels: moody
Tuesday, December 25, 2007,2:19 AM
Returning Back The Favour
Christmas has arrived.
which means, i've pulled through, finally.
It is not easy.
but what do i get in return???
This is the
WORST christmas ever!
why do i need to cry myself to sleep lately, for every single night?
can i push the entire blame to my Stupid period?
surely, i would wake up tomorrow, with extra puffy eyes once again.
damn, i
HATE it. all these shit that are making me so pathetically miserable.
i am going to end it.
Loners are
often Forgotten and they are tended to be left at home; even for a special occasion like Christmas; while the rest enjoy the company of others. Even if the
significant someone isn't there, it is
PERFECTLY alright!
It
ABSOLUTELY Doesn't Matter at all to them!
They are still, (miraculously!) able to have fun and enjoy themselves to the fullest.
Since
SOME other people are capable of doing this, I need to learn how to do it as well.
Will do.
People can Wait and See.
Monday, December 24, 2007,12:05 AM
Not Losing Hope
woke up feeling abit weird today.. my sorethroat that has lasted for a week or so, doubled up with flu. don't really mind the sorethroat, but hate the sickening flu.. made my nose irritated and my eyes watery. hope it will go away by tomorrow.
3 days counting down to Christmas. i hope that it would come
and pass ASAP. people do not know the real reason why i wish for it, for they assume that i can't wait for my birthday to come. i don't bother to explain though, don't see the need of doing so.
usually after i've done something, i'll expect some kind of acknowledgement. waiting for a couple of hours.. a day had past.. then, two.. three.. i kept telling myself that.. "ok, maybe not today.. maybe not now.. maybe it will be some other days.. maybe the acknowledgement will be in some other form that i may not know about.." haha. keep deceiving myself and remaining hopeful. i feel silly now as i speak of it.
Friday, December 21, 2007,6:35 PM
Trip to JB
went to bb's relative house, in JB, with him yesterday.
upon reaching Johor checkpoint, it welcomed us with a heavy downpour.
his dad met up with us and drove us there.
wow. am i amazed. the house is big, the surrounding scenery is beautiful andpeaceful.
it is quiet in the sense that if people stopped talking, there would be complete silence. not a single sound could be heard. something i have not experience before in the busy city of Singapore.
the food that they consumed, the house that they lived in, the environment surrounding them, their way of living.. its all different.
all in all, it was an eye-opener and a really fruitful trip. i was able to spend quality time with my bb, and at the same time, experiencing something different. killing two birds with one stone.
however, it could be even perfect if not for the heavy rain throughout the day. i couldn't go out to the open space and walk through the trees and take in the scent of mother's nature.
but still, it was worth my time and i enjoyed myself thoroughly.
-The Memories brought back-
Labels: fun
Wednesday, December 19, 2007,11:48 PM
X'mas Dinner
just came back from the company cum christmas dinner.
at UIC building, level 6.
we were having ala carte buffet. the food is so nice, somemore you can order whatever you like on the menu. yum!
there was this gift exchanging on that day itself.
but beforehand, we have to ballot, in order to know who are we buying for.
this will be kept as a secret, until today.
so one week ago, i wrote down the names onto pieces of papers, and let my colleagues to pick first. in the end, i'm left with two (one for myself, one for my colleague, who was out for appointment).
what an coincidence, we found out today that the last two pieces of paper turned out to be our names and we, sort of picked each other. no wonder he gave that kind of expression and comment when i told him that slip of paper was his; like i was cheating or what. ahahaa.
i too, was a bit shock when i saw his name in the piece of paper i'm holding.
haha. i tink its very fun, also to cultivate and really feel the spirit. plus, everyone will receive something for x'mas.
some of my colleagues brought their families along. they are so cute and fun. quite sticky to me too! they are with different personality, some are bubbly, with lots to talk about, some are quiet, but i could see it in their eyes that they wanted to join in the fun and are equally excited when they see the other kids playing catching with each other.
last but not least, all of us went back with a logcake each from Emicakes.
of course, i chose the durian flavour, as that is what they are famous for!
woa.. too much eating of logcakes and good food these few days.. i'm growing fatter with every bite i take.
but who can resist such delicious and mouth-watering delicacies? not me =)..
Labels: fun
Sunday, December 16, 2007,6:30 PM
Love Quotes
Perfect love is rare indeed -
for to be a lover will require
that you continually have
the subtlety of the very wise,
the flexibility of the child,
the sensitivity of the artist,
the understanding of the philosopher,
the acceptance of the saint,
the tolerance of the scholar
and the fortitude of the certain.
~Leo Buscaglia~
Love is an act of endless forgiveness,
a tender look which becomes a habit.
Time is too slow for those who wait,
too swift for those who fear,
too long for those who grieve,
too short for those who rejoice,
but for those who love,
time is eternity.
Labels: *in love*
Friday, December 07, 2007,11:33 PM
got drenched in the heavy rain on wednesday when i was on my way to the mrt frm work.
the rain got heavier with every step i took, so regretted not taking the umbrella frm my colleague.
everyone was staring at me when i was running in the rain and so did the people in the mrt when i rushed in the train without drying myself. i was practically dripping water frm my hair and clothes, i could feel eyes staring and fingers pointing. and the train was so cramped, i think no one dared to come near to me. haha.. but i was so paiseh, could not afford to stay in the train for another 30mins, partly cause i'm shivering. so i got out at the next station.
oh god, when i finally got in a toilet and i saw myself in the mirror, i looked like someone who had fallen inside the pool.
gotten a splitting headache in the night that kept me awake most of the time. not forgetting to mention the terrible sorethroat.
the result is two days of MC.
think this is the first time i've taken MC.
i've nv taken MC even when i was in school (hmm, not counting the period when i've got chicken pox, of cos)
i hope i don't get addicted to taking MC.. cause the feeling of not having to go to work is so pleasant. haha.
especially when its the raining season, i've no wish to get out of my cosy bed.
anyway, sorry for the sidetrack, back to what im saying..
even though i've headache, throat infection, body ache, and slight fever, i still thought that two days of MC was abit exaggerating..
haha, but who cares. think i must have appeared to be on the verge of dying when i was with the doctor. Lol.
ahh.. and my bb.. eek.
didn't take care of me.
still want to torture me when i'm sick.
k lar.. understandable.
think he is trying to make use of this opportunity to bully me when i'm weak cause he knows that he can't fight me when i'm fit.
right baobei? =p
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no matter what i do
all i think about is you
Labels: happy
Wednesday, December 05, 2007,1:54 PM
Sleepless Nights
i've been having difficulty sleeping peacefully throughout the night.
always waking up at intervals; 230am, 330am, 5am etc..
scratching my head, trying to find out why.
finally, it hit me.
i knew what made me wake up abruptly in the middle of the night.
but after each time, i will end up going back to sleep again, disappointed.
the cause was so obvious, i must have been stupid to realise it only now.
there is a cure for it, that is, to not have any expectations.
hope i can manage to overcome it.
Tuesday, December 04, 2007,1:59 PM
Indecisiveness
this is a lesson to me.
to tell me not to hesitiate too much, or i might end up regretting.
or, if i look at it in another point of view..
maybe it is trying to tell me something.
hmm..
don't do things that you might end up regretting.
also, don't regret after action.
you can blame no one, as it is only your own decision.
Saturday, December 01, 2007,6:27 PM
Stuck Up Life
i wish that i could find the words to say.
but im speechless.
home alone today..
and i'm loving it..
some peace and quietness, to think and ponder.
i didn't have any food at all, except for the tiny chocolate pie for brunch, which, halfway through, did i realised that it had expired months ago.
still i finished it, anyway no one cares.
don't feel like having my dinner too. so tedious to get out of my hse and buy.
i seem to be crying alot more these days, due to numerous reasons.
with every word exchanged, my dislike for him seems to grow.
everytime a conversation starts, the subject will always be that topic.
it will be followed by some hurtful comments.
and of course, he is not the reason that im crying over. that would just be a waste of my tears. crying only because i felt that i've been wrong, and also the unjust i feel for her. of course he wouldn't want to revert back to previously, the reason is so obvious!
i really feel that i'm very useless, with so many anger boiling inside me and injustice faced, but i can't voice out or retort back. what's the use of plain weeping.
those were also the words he said years ago, and what's with him now.
everything is being said by him; all the craps. and now being taken back. as if he didn't promise them at all.
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reality.
its really that harsh.
what's with that people look for you when they are in need of you, or when they need you to help them with something. when its not this case, they will disappear and you will not hear from them. until, you initiate the conversation, they had no choice but to reply back a few sentences or so, just to get you off their back.
when you need them by your side, to hear about the things happening in your life, your happiness or your troubles and sorrows, more often than not, they are not there for you.
not only friends, even people you love or claims that they love you.
i only feel used.
who really knows what i'm going through everyday.
"No one."
why is my life this messy.
when will i see the light shining through these darkness.
Labels: sadness
_-*Shamain*-_
