what's the point of starving myself? what do i expect frm it? other than being foolish.. i'm the one who is suffering in the end.
i hoped that tml will come & go quickly. really want my life back to normal.. its almost too painful to look at u. the smile that i forcefully painted on my face.. the aching that my heart feels, i almost break down. but of cos, i held back. those words you said.. were deeply embedded inside my mind. they once, made me felt on clouds nine.. but now. they hurt. hurts everytime when they just appeared inside my mind. i wondered why did u say those words in the first place.
its so damn funny, sometimes i just want to laugh. how strangers can turn into friends; & then, back to strangers again. & all these happens within days..
friends.. yeah.. do u have friends that don't even talk?
its.. almost TOO ridiculous.
FATE. its such a stupid thing. i would like to challenge u. i'll be ready the next time. come on, give me your best shot. regardless of the outcome.. i will not regret. life is too short to dwell in the past. i've got to move on. i don't wish to live my life in regret. i've alrdy countless regrets & i'm tired of them. i'll try my very best to live my everyday life.
*This is VERY important* i'll let no one affect my mood. sad/ happy - it all depends on me i MUST rmb this. must must must...
I've just passed the age of what you called, teenagers. So ya, as much as I hate to admit. I'm officially an adult now. Time to grow up and be independent.
I'm a clumsy person. More often than not, I do not know what I want. Meaning, I contradict myself. I love myself, but I hate that I have this tendency to think too much - hence, explained the creation of this blog.
♥Loves
#1 [my Soulmate]
#2 [my Baobei]
#3 [my Baby]
--> ♥Saiful Azfar♥: This guy got me mesmerized.
#1 World Peace
(blah. That wish is meant for Miss Universe; not me.)
#2 Indulging in
- Attention
- Love
- Genuine Care
- Concern (from my Love)
#3 Plane ride
#4 See snow #5 Pink Nintendo DS Lite #6 Pink Laptop
#7 Anything given by *him* #8 Small Bolster
#9 xX SecRet Xx
_-*Shamain*-_
