;` hiding behind a cheery smile;

Announcement

2009-05-02T04:30:00.005+08:00

I have shifted to a new blog.

http://floweringcherry3.wordpress.com/

A little sad to leave this colourful blogger that has been with me since my poly days, but who knows I might be back again! (:

Hopefully by then, they will have made more improvements to their features.

WAH LAO A... damn funny sia

2009-04-29T23:20:00.006+08:00

I AM BROWSING SOME WEBSITES AND IS LAUGHING (plus some snorting) MY ASS OFF!!!
LOL LOL LOL...

laughing louder and louder as if my screw has gone loose, that my bro is so fucking pissed off with me and is asking me to SHUT UP!! wahaha
omg, he doesn't know what I'm laughing about, I'm sure he will be rolling on the floor laughing.

Fucking funny, shall share if I have the time. hahahahahah! else the secret stays with me! MUAHAHA~

Ramen in S'pore

2009-04-28T21:16:00.005+08:00

remember my post regarding the ramen store I discovered hidden at the 3rd level of Marina Square? Kyo-Nichi

Beside this, Ajisen Ramen is the only place I will go to for Quality Ramen in S'pore.

I have been to (in running order)

Ajisen (countless outlets)
Sumi Charcoal Grill Yakitori (located at Centrepoint basement)
Kyo-Nichi (located at Marina Sq, 3rd level)
Ramen Ten (at Far East Plaza & Tampines Central)
and the most recent one being Bishamon (Raffles City marketplace)

all solely for their ramen.. and I find that for some, their ramen CMI!

1) Sumi Charcoal Grill Yakitori was a shop that I chanced upon while walking through the new renovated Centrepoint basement. this was the 1st japanese ramen store that I tried besides Ajisen.
I remembered they were having a promotion for their ramen.
the shop ambience and seating was quite nice, rather spacious.
service was quick, I don't have to wait long for my ramen to arrive.
Gasp, their ramen was disappointing. the noodles lack the springyness and really is like maggi mee to me.

after reviewing their website after so long since that 1st and last visit there, perhaps their strength was in Yakitori, so they did not place much importance in their ramen.

http://www.sumi.com.sg/

2) Was wandering in Far East Plaza, lost at deciding on the food to eat, we saw Ramen Ten and went in. my thoughts was since this Japanese food chain outlet is called Ramen Ten, their ramen should be of some standard. I was proven to be wrong. once again, the noodles is like maggi mee. but at least their soup base is slightly better than Sumi.
I take it that because pork knuckles and bones are an essential item for brewing of ramen soup base, maybe that is the reason why the soup tasted slightly different from what I had before as Ramen Ten is a halal certified Japanese eatery, so I cannot complain much (:
The 2nd time I went to Tampines, not for the ramen but for the sushi. not bad, sushi is sushi, can't really get any difference unless it is not fresh. but still, I will choose Sakae Sushi anytime =X

http://www.ramenten.com/home.htm

3) went to Bishamon at Raffles City basement Marketplace yesterday.
the shop is suprisingly small and there wasn't much seats available. the seats were also not that comfortable, rather cramp and low back, hardly able to lean back. their specialty are the sapporo ramen series, but they also have clear soup base ramen.
I ordered the clear soup ramen (Shoyu Ramen), he ordered Special Miso Ramen from the Sapporo series. I had a rather high expectation for this shop as I have heard of it for quite some time only yet to try it for myself and also because of their pricing. it is more expensive than Ajisen ramen (ranging from SGD11.80 ~ SGD14.90).
I picked up my chopstick and poke at the ramen, and I know I'm in for a disappointment. It was in a deep yellow color, the soup was really like maggi soup and there wasn't much ingredients =( no seaweed, no tau gei, no egg.. boohoohoo..) then the cha shu is like Ajisen's, which I don't really like, tough and will get stuck to my teeth =X so all give to him, so my bowl only left the noodles and soup, really is like maggi. but this maggi very expensive and furthermore I think my maggi beehoon that I cooked at home tasted 10x nicer =X
his sapporo ramen had slightly more ingredients like seaweed and egg. I have to mention about the egg, they cooked it 50% only, so the exterior looked like a hard-boiled egg, but when you take a bite, the inside is still soft and the eggyolk can flow =X I didn't know at first, when I bite (I asked from him) and sensed sth amiss, I see how come inside is gor gor de.. eee =XX sua ku.. so I gave back to him. LOL~ hee
I also commented that this is a cruel way to kill a chick =( haha! of course there isn't any chick inside lah.
and! the serving was so little, around 3/5 of ajisen's servings (not that I can take more of their ridiculous maggi-treated-as-ramen noodles.)
throughout I was complaining and grouching about how expensive this bowl of maggi mee is.. and saying mine was like $0.60 worth and his was better, at least taste like fishball noodles (that was an overstatement) so maybe worth $3.00. hahaha!
no wonder, even though the shop was rather small, there was still plenty of unoccupied seats even though it was dinner time already.
feel like got conned! I will never be back again! >_<

http://www.bishamon.com.sg/

you can take a look at the reviews, and decide for yourself.

http://www.hungrygowhere.com/singapore/sapporo_ramen_bishamon_raffles_city_shopping_centre/

after having the tries on ramen at these supposedly famous ramen shops, I have realised that perhaps there is nothing wrong with them, maybe ramen are supposed to be like this in S'pore. too bad I have been to Ajisen Ramen many times and know what good quality ramen are supposed to be (if u study their ramen, they really have two cores! that is the secret to their springgy and delicious ramen!!) or maybe my expectations are too high.
but ramen in Tokyo, Japan are nothing like these.
not even Ajisen Ramen can be up to their standard. once you have tried the 100% authentic ramen in Japan, it will take you a few months to adjust back to S'pore Ajisen Ramen standard. it is still the best that you can ask for in S'pore though.

anyone who knows of any equal or better ramen in S'pore, please let me this ramen fan, know! =D

Marshmallows ღღღ

2009-04-25T17:35:00.004+08:00

did I mentioned before that I LOVE to eat Marshmallows?

haha, i absolutely fell in love with them ever since the first piece of marshmallow melted into my mouth when I was still a kid. I still remembered it was chocolate flavour and the cute packaging showing a colourful wooden rocking horse on each individual wrapper.

not just any marshmallow will satisfy me but only authentic made in japan marshmallow.
those made in USA or european countries are often made with too much sugar and they tasted weird to me.
My love is for those with chocolate and strawberry fillings, not those with funny JAM fillings.
I have noticed many counterfeit products especially from a country 5hours from us via air, they made the packaging looked exactly the same and many a times people didn't realised that they were being conned into paying for more than what it's worth.
even though the packaging can be copied (completed with all the japanese wordings etc), their quality are definitely something they cannot match with.

the chocolate fillings of the China made marshmallows tasted more impure.
much less to say for strawberry fillings, for Japan marshmallows the strawberry used for the fillings are oftenly CREAM type, whereas for the counterfeit, they used JAM.
Of course, taste varies between individuals, but I very much prefer the Japan strawberry marshmallows as they tasted creamy and with just the right sweetness, the strawberry Jam fillings tasted sweet but also a little sour.

the biggest difference of the M.I.J and M.I.C marshmallows can be seen easily from the appearance, they will appear wrinkled whereas Japan made marshmallows are smooth textured and appear plumped.

if you are unsure, the easiest way is to check at the back of the packaging, the place of manufacture.

the creamy chocolate filled marshmallow that I have just devoured this ~~morning~~ afternoon, when I woke up ((:

Can someone please wake him up from his TOO LONG a dream?

2009-04-22T23:20:00.001+08:00

oh. what a boring life I have.
it is so freaking mundane, it's freaking me out big-time.

3 more months! i can't wait for that BIG day to come.
and I can wave goodbye to this god-damn asshole who thinks he knows-it-all!
either he is living in some serious INCURABLE self-denial or he has been dreaming since the day he was born.
he is making me feel like whamming the bricks on his fat head.
*note: the bricks were brought back by him from our neighbours. is ours a rag-and-bone company? all along I thought we were into sensor and transmitter businesses.*

goodness, has he not got anything better to do than doing crappy stuffs like annoying neighbours, disturbing cats, kicking dogs and picking on people who are really contributing to the company? like doing GENUINE visits to customers (not visiting them just for the sake of getting your passport stamped, getting free treats and meals, not forgetting to stop over at Thailand for some spas and massage) and providing quotations that actually let us EARN some margin (all enquiries that you handle are all making a loss, might as well knock yourself into a coma and the company can at least float with us around!)

Quote: One shouldn't be too confident.
My thoughts: I think you are HOPELESSLY Over Confident.

Quote: One shouldn't always think he is right.
My thoughts: You sure you wanna talk about this?

Quote: One shouldn't be racist.
My thoughts: Ya, right. if you are not, I'm not sure if anyone else is.

Quote: One shouldn't think that they are smart.
My thoughts: Omg, do you realised you are constantly slapping yourself??!

all these (and many others which I cannot mention here else it will be never-ending) that came from your mouth are exactly the opposite of your behaviour. lol.
you've got no idea how much humor you had brought into my life, I'm laughing my head off the minute you open your mouth, and almost suffocating.
oh please, you are just another clown to me, the biggest and best ever I've ever seen in my whole life!
all the self-praising, all your mother-stories.. wow! they are the biggest bullshit. before I knew you I didn't know one can talk crap till this extent and STILL think people respect you.
even the dogs hate you, FYI.

haha! ya, I respect how your parents can take your nonsense, respect how your wife can withstand your bullshitting.
RESPECT THEM MAN! SALUTE!

I'm gonna pin his fucking face on my wall and use it as a dart board!
Maybe not, my wall is going to give way.

I must exert SELF-CONTROL.

II Communications II

2009-04-21T23:47:00.000+08:00

心跳 II Xin Tiao II Heartbeat

2009-04-21T23:16:00.003+08:00

心跳 II Xin Tiao II Heartbeat

想跟我吵架我没那麽无聊
Xiang gen wo chao jia Wo mei na me wu liao
You want to argue with me. I’m not that free.

不懂得道歉我没那麽聪明
Bu dong de dao qian Wo mei na me cong ming
I don't know how to apologize. I’m not that bright.

好想要回到我们的原点
Hao xiang yao hui dao wo men de yuan dian
I really want to go back to where we started from.

你又在哭泣我给不了安慰
Ni you zai ku qi Wo gei bu liao an wei
You are crying again. I can't comfort you.

我又在摇头有那麽点後悔
Wo you zai yao tou You na me dian hou hui
I’m shaking my head again disapproving of my actions. There’s only that much regret.

爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走
Ai qing de fa zhan yi nan yi hui tou que wu fa wang qian zou
Love’s development is already hard to turn back, but I’m unable to go forward.

但身不由己出现在胸口两颗心能塞几个问号
Dan shen bu you ji chu xian zai xiong kou Liang ke xin neng sai ji ge wen hao
My feelings surge and take over. How many questions can two hearts contain?

爱让我们流多少眼泪
Ai rang wo men liu duo shao yan lei
How much tears did love make us shed?

*Chorus*

你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
Ni de yan shen chong man mei li dai zou de xin tiao
Your eyes are brimming with beauty carrying away my heartbeat.

你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
Ni de wen rou ru ci kao jin dai zou wo de xin tiao
Your caringness is so close that it take away my heartbeat.

逆转时光到一开始能不能给一秒
Ni zhuan shi guang dao yi kai shi Neng bu neng gei yi miao
Time has turned back to a beginning. Can you give me a moment?

等着哪一天你也想起
Deng zhe na yi tian ni ye xiang qi
I’m waiting for the day when you will also remember

那悬在记忆中的美好
Na xuan zai ji yi zhong de mei hao
That happiness longing in our memories.

2009-04-20T20:49:00.003+08:00

Most think that the pasture is always greener on the other side, what you cannot get will always be the best.
As such, we tend to neglect and not cherish what we have right now.
Only when those we failed to treasure have left us, will we start to regret.
But it is all too late.

JB Trip

2009-04-18T23:59:00.005+08:00

*beware: long entry*

took off early today to JB, it's the 2nd time going with darren and guan lun, minus yong hua and wei da, and adding in edwina.

we left lakeside mrt around 1045am for transfer at Kranji to JB.
traffic is considered quite smooth if you were to compare with last friday, which was Good Friday, don't know why they of all days, choose to go on that particular day. must be trying to do some reverse psychological thinking but failed terribly.

reached JB City Square around 11 plus, and when we had our breakfast cum lunch it was alrdy 12pm! i was so damn hungry, can hear my own stomach growling loudly. they wanted to try at the Wan Chai HongKong Cafe. when i got inside, i was so distracted because i couldn't get the table that i wanted, so i kept glancing around while they were discussing on what to eat. this happened when i was eating at this cafe in s'pore too. so when i finally saw the table was available, i asked if we could shift. haha, so after we shifted i was happy and could finally loosen up and focus on the food and conversation. the food standard is exactly the same as what you can get in s'pore, total bill was about RM74.

we proceeded to shop around and when i saw this t-shirt i bought it without hesitation as i had already seen it last week but didnt get it so i don't want to regret again.

i realised that many slippers were being sold there, hence i tot of buying a pair since mine was a little old. one caught my eyes, it was white with a silver glittery stripe just right over the toes area. initally i was only casually browsing through, but as i passed another shop and saw it, the more i look at it the more i found it to be pretty and unique. i asked for my size but gasp, there isn't size 5. den i went back to the 1st shop and still there is none. omg, right at that moment i really wanted to get it badly, bcos now owning that pair of slipper has become like a challenge for me. the more i know i cannot get it, the more i want to get it. it's like the things that i want, always no right sizing or no stock etc... grr.. feel so sad cannot find the slipper in the end even though i did keep a lookout for it at other places =(
but guan lun bought a nice pair of shoes for his school usage. haha, someone is preparing for back to school lei! =D

we cabbed to Jaya Jusco
cab uncle is friendly and chat with us regarding the different cars in malaysia and singapore. anyway, buying one car in s'pore is equivalent to getting two in m'sia. hais... tough life.
wah, first time going there. mall is quite big, but also quite empty and i find many spaces are not being fully utilised, it's like the new bugis shopping centre. big but the spaces are not being made use to create more sales opportunities.
i bought 2 diamante hairclips from a pushcart. i like them very much, as i have been looking for one but can't really see any that caught my eye. i like those blink blink thingy, anything that is crystal/diamante like either on hair accessories, necklace, bracelet, shoes, clothings, watches, woo, do they get my attention. haha!
darren bought a fortune cat display which i think it's quite cute and unique in the sense that it's not those normal porcelein fortune cat that you will see in many stores. he meant to display it in his office, lol. want to let his boss praise him for the extra effort made right? haha!
we went to black canyon to sip some drinks (and ease our tired feets), omg the ice mint fruity punch i ordered was so damn sour and people who knows me well will know that i absolutely cannot take sour taste. and what's more, i wanted to confront the waiters what's up with the name of the drink (note: ice mint fruity punch), why isn't there the slightest hint of mint in that drink??! pissed sia, i ordered cos i like minty taste and yet! thinking of tearing down their signboard or at least vandalising their menu, but i'm not in s'pore so no courage to do so.. hahah! (nah, just kidding, i won't have the guts to tear down ppl's signboard.. at least not personally if you know what i mean).
the coffee that darren and edwina ordered was so thick, i think only my boss can withstand that strong caffeine and still insist that it's not as strong as his specially grinded coffee powder. note: 3KG of S$22 coffee powder consumed within 1 1/2 weeks by him and him only.
-______-lll (no comments)
went to Watson's and bought a mascara. edwina used this particular mascara and i saw that her eyelashes were prettily coated with just the right amount, nothing overdone, so i wanted to try it too for myself and see if it is as good as the ZA Cutie Curl mascara that i was using.
besides shops like Harris, Levis, Topshop, Mango, Espirit, there is also this super big hypermarket there called Jusco. if you are thinking of it to be another Giant Hypermarket that M'sia is famous for, think further. it's like Giant cum BHG, the departmental store as it sells apparels and cosmetics with brands like Chanel, all the higher end stuffs and also common brands like Revlon, Maybelline etc.
edwina bought alot of food, snacks and tidbits from there.. guan lun also bought sushi and two whole roasted chicken! haha. i was so full i cannot think about food anymore, so i didn't even think of buying any. darren and myself bought a pack of white coffee for our mummies. haha! same thinking coincidentally. what to do, can't help being filial =P when we came out from the hypermarket, wow, the mall is surprisely packed with lots of people, an exact opposite situation when we just arrived.

as we were still very full for dinner, we walked over to Tesco, it's just the building beside. the shopping mall is similar to Jusco (i suspect they are brothers, i mean same owner) their concept is the same. mall with shops and also the anchor tenant being the hypermart departmental store. hmm.. i don't remember if we went inside the hypermart this time (either my memory is failing me due to us walking around frantically or perhaps the seemingly replica of this shopping mall as the previous) but i knew that we didn't spent much time here. i think this is the place where i bought a pair of shoes with a row of diamante across each, haha! it just caught my eye and seeing the price is reasonable and i need a pair of non-heels shoes, i bought it. hope this shoe don't give me trouble! *crossing my fingers*

not soon after we cabbed to Taman Sentosa, a eating place that's opposite to Crystal Crown Hotel that offers all kinds of seafood delicacy at cheap rates as compared to s'pore.
ordered oyster egg, teppanyaki tofu, oats prawns, stingray, bak ku teh (think that should be all). i don't really like to eat anything that are fried with oats and also seldom eat prawns if i'm outside, so i didn't touch that plate of prawns. i think the best will be the tofu, i was quite disappointed with the oyster egg bcos when we ordered last friday, it was hot and tasty but today was cold and soggy. no more crazily big barley anymore, but still i cannot finish even half of my medium size barley, it's so damn tasteless, despite the fact that i have already emphasise that i want barley less ice. almost everything tasted worse than last friday, what's the problem with the hawkers? the bill rang up to RM67. our breakfast cum lunch is more expensive than our seafood dinner? well, breakfast is the most important meal of the day. (although we had it at 12plus, haha!)
we were stuffing ourselves mad with the food and gasp! after we left the table, edwina wanted to eat lok lok! wow, were we impressed she actually leave some room for them. but after a few bites she cannot take it and take-away.

we decided to take a stroll before we get a cab to digest our food. the road was so dark and scary and there were quite a number of dark alleys, i admit i was very scared. haha! after a walk of about 20mins of bold courage testing, finally decided to take a cab back to City Square. were lucky a cab was immediately available. the uncle said that we shouldn't walk this distance as it is very dangerous especially when it's late. hah! who is the one who suggested to walk hurh! then they started to talk about the danger and crimes that happened in JB, only then did i know about the robbing incident that happened in JB this week. was thinking shit, i was so daring to go inside toilet alone like nothing matters for quite a few times >_< lucky they only mentioned this nearing the end of this JB trip, else i think i'll hold my pee from the morning till i reach home at night. haha! after edwina's final purchase of local products, we moved on to the customs.
reached s'pore custom nearing 10pm and cabbed back to our home.

it was quite a tiring but fun day for me, i was more tired especially when we were coming back, (nearly) fell asleep quite a few times.
all in all, i find it's better then the first time because our time were being spent more fruitfully in this trip. hee. went to more places and bought stuffs and of course spent more money too! haha, we are helping the economy ok. keke.
but perhaps we should meet earlier, say 9am instead. provided i can get up on time. haha! =P

背叛 | Bei Pan | Betrayal

2009-04-12T18:11:00.002+08:00

雨　不停落下來
Yu　bu ting luo xia lai
Rain　falls continuously

花　怎麼都不開
Hua　ze me dou bu kai
Why　doesn't the flower bloom?

儘管我細心灌溉　你說不愛就不愛
Jin guan wo xi xing guan gai　ni shuo bu ai jiu bu ai
Despite my showering of care　you said you won't love and don't love (anymore)

我一個人　欣賞悲哀
Wo yi ge ren　xin shang bei ai
I　watch and appreciate the sorrow alone

愛　只剩下無奈
Ai　zhi sheng xia wu nai
Love　is left with only helplessness

我　一直不願再去猜
Wo　yi zhi bu yuan zai qu cai
I　kept refusing to guess

鋼琴上黑鍵之間　永遠都夾著空白
Gang qin shang hei jian zhi jian　yong yuan dou jia zhe kong bai
White emptiness will always fill the gap 　between the black keys of the piano

缺了一塊　就不精采
Que le yi kuai　jiu bu jing cai
(When)a piece is missing　it can never be complete

＊緊緊相依的心如何Say Goodbye＊
＊Jin jin xiang yi de xin ru he Say Goodbye＊
＊How can two closely interlinked hearts say goodbye＊

你比我清楚還要我說明白　
Ni bi wo qing chu hai yao wo shuo ming bai　
You know better than I do, yet you still want me to explain (it)　

愛太深會讓人瘋狂的勇敢　
Ai tai shen hui rang ren feng kuang de yong gan　
When the love is too deep, it can make people irrationally courageous　

我用背叛自己　完成你的期盼　
Wo yong bei pan zi ji　wan chen ni de qi dai　
I betray myself　to reach your expectations　

把手放開不問一句Say Goodbye　
Ba shou fang kai bu wen yi ju Say Goodbye　
Letting go without asking anything, (and) say goodbye　

當作最後一次對你的溺愛　
Dang zuo zui hou yi ci dui ni de ni ai　
Let it be the last pampering I give you　

冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管　
Leng leng qing qing dan dan jin hou dou bu guan　
Coldly, drearily, mildly (I) will no longer care　

＊只要你能愉快＊
＊Zhi yao ni neng yu kuai＊　
＊As long as you can be happy＊

心　有一句感慨
Xin　you yi ju gan kai
(My) heart　has only one regret

我　還能夠跟誰對白
Wo　hai neng gou gen shui dui bai
Who　can I still ask to

在你關上門之前　替我再回頭看看
Zai ni guan shang men zhi qian　ti wo zai hui tou kan kan
Before you close the door　look back again for me

那些片段　還在不在
Na xie pian duan　hai zai bu zai
to see if (our) snippets　are still there

Quotes of Life

2009-04-09T00:22:00.009+08:00

- He or she who laughs......lasts.
- True religion is the life we lead, and not the creed we profess.
- If you don't start, it's certain you won't arrive.
- Yesterday was the deadline for all complaints.
- When things go wrong, don't go with them.
- You must learn from the mistakes of others. You can't possibly live long enough to make them all yourself.
- When someone tells me the is only one way to do things, it always lights a fire under my butt. My instant reaction is, I’m gonna prove you wrong.
- Success is how high you bounce when you hit bottom.
- There are three kinds of people in this world: The wills, the won'ts and the can'ts. The first accomplish everything; the second oppose everything; the third fail in everything.
- Fail to prepare; Prepare to fail.
- The man who makes no mistakes does not usually make anything.
- The early bird gets the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese.
- When I hear somebody sigh "Life is hard" I'm always tempted to ask "Compared to what?
- The way some people find fault, you'd think there was some kind of reward.
- Change is inevitable, except from a vending machine.
- People who think they know what they're doing are especially annoying to those of us who do.
- Going to church doesn't make you a Christian any more than standing in a garage makes you a car.
- Everyone is entitled to be stupid, but some abuse the privilege.
- War doesn't determine who's right. War determines who's left.
- I once prayed to god for a bike, but quickly found out he didnt work that way...so I stole a bike and prayed for his forgiveness.
- Sarcasm helps keep you from telling people what you really think of them.
- Expecting the world to treat you fairly because you are good is like expecting the bull not to charge because you are a vegetarian.
- Optimism: Waiting for a ship to come in when you haven't sent one out.
- Everyone has a photographic memory. Some don't have film.
- If you blame someone for your failure, do you credit them for your achievements?
- To err is human, to forgive is not Company Policy.

Happy Together 20th Monthsary!

2009-03-27T20:45:00.003+08:00

I've been dwelling on for god knows how long, been wanting to take a neoprint with him, but to no avail...
Until on Tuesday, he finally gave in to me! Yeah!
I was elated to hear that, but as we walked nearer towards the neoprint shop at Bugis, my heart was thumping too fast, due to nervousness and excitement.. haha!!
Too excited that I was at a loss of deciding on the neoprint booth, so we went to walked around. it was so long since I last took one, the prices had gone up, instead of the $9~$10, the current price is $11~$12 ):
Finally, we changed our notes for coins and in a few minutes time.. we were done, the shooting part was so quick, it was over before I realised. Then, we hurried on to decorate the photos.. Aww, it was a pain, because I couldn't read the Japanese words.. And it was after much time had ticked away, then did I realised that there were other options for decorations, oh dear, did I panicked.

Ta-da!! Our 1st time is given to youuuu.. keke

It wasn't that well taken and decorated, but well I'm pretty satisfied ya know you can't expect too much from two first-timers, okayyyyy.. hah!
But I love how baobei looked in the photo! so cute.. hee, love the neoprint lots.
He said that the next time we are taking will be next year, but I know you are joking, aren't ya baobei? heehee..
If you are not, I'll be sad lei.. Don't want me to be sad right? hee.. =P

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Time flies fast and look baobei, we are together for...

20 months already!

Cheers!!

I still love you as much as I did then, much more now that my feelings towards you have grown stronger as your character unfolded slowly as both of us grew more at ease and are comfortable with each other when we are together.

And I am glad that we gave each other a chance to work this relationship out, else we wouldn't know what we will be missing (:

So I'm really sticky to you, and beware! Because I'm undetachable! hee..
Come what may, I'm not letting go of you (:

So many smooches, muackkssss for you, my baobei Saiful Azfar :-*

Dare you not to laugh!

2009-03-14T20:57:00.001+08:00

i want to share this video with all.
damn funny, no matter how many times i watch this video, i will still laugh..
hahah!! enjoy!

Valentine 2009

2009-02-15T20:39:00.010+08:00

This year I had a lovely valentine as I got to spend it with dearest dardar..

BB was so sweet on Friday, the day before Valentine.
He waited for me to knock off work and surprised me with a bouquet of flowers and a gift beautifully wrapped by him (:
I was surprised as I didn't expect anything since Valentine is only the next day.

He wanted to dine at Swensen's, but.. Western food isn't really my stuff, hence I suggested us to try the Ramen restaurant - Kyo-Nichi [Collagen Ramen].
Wow, I didn't regret, the Ramen is delicious, the serving is big, price is reasonable (similar to Ajisen) and it does not charge the 10% service fee.
I’m not a fan of Cha-Shu as I find them a tad too hard and too chewy (I’ve got lazy teeth and mouth) BUT their Cha-Shu is very tender, you hardly need to chew, very different from Ajisen.
I would recommend you to try it!
With each type of Ramen, you can opt for 3 different soup base - Standard; Spicy; Thick
The 1st two are rather explainable.
Thick means there are more collagen in the noodles and soup as compared to the other two.
They have Red Bean Crushed Ice Drink on their menu, it is actually like normal red bean soup (only that it’s more meshy), added with ice and instead of eating it from a bowl, you drink it from a glass! Haha, but I find this drink nice and slurpy.
Oh, and they provide each guest with a cup of hot green tea upon serving.
Why the hesitation? Go try the Ramen too alright! Located at Marina Square (opposite Pasta de Waraku).

Ok, got to get advertising fees from Kyo-Nichi dy.
Hmm, I don’t mind an unlimited treat at Kyo-Nichi (:

Btw.. Pasta de Waraku ... I think the food there sucks.
Their plates are damn big, but their servings are freaking little. moreover, the fried rice that i had ordered, tasted like salt is free in this world. not going there for a 2nd time. Waste money to torture myself. bleh.

Later on into the night, we opened the present together, he bought me the 100% Be@rbrick Valentine 2009 Edition - a Collector item. ehh. it was a pair of cute furry bears with movable arms and legs. haha, i ain't got the passion for these collector thingy but this serves as a great memorable gift for this year Valentines for reminiscing purpose (:

Following which, he pulled out another wrapped gift and handed over to me.
He told me that was for my 21st birthday (ha-ha, i know it was like 45 days late).

I looked inside the wrapper... omg, it was an iPod Touch!! Just the day before, we saw it in epicentre and I was thinking to myself how nice it would be if I own an iPod Touch.
It’s like a wish come true, i was so overwhelmed that tears of joy flowed out of my eyes.. Mainly I was touched by baobei's action and thoughtfulness; it was totally unexpected as I had never let known to him my desire for this iPod Touch.

To sum up, I’d got flowers, 100% be@rbrick, watch and wallet from him for Valentine’s Day this year. All of which I loved!!!

It was surprise after surprises for me... awww... he is sooooo sweet :')

The next day... I went over to his workplace and passed him his V. day pressie!
And we spent the rest of the time together... hee...

Happy Valentine's Day 2009!!!

To my Saiful baobei... my love for you is growing stronger each day! I love you so much, muacks!!

ありがとう

2009-01-31T01:39:00.000+08:00

ありがとう..

.. for the most cuddly cush cush intended for placing on my office chair as the chair often gives me aches on the shoulder and back. but i still have not bring it to my workplace as i don't bear to leave it alone there during weekends and holidays.

.. for the lovely watch that i have been yearning long for. i love it lots, i don't ever wanna take it off.

.. for all the pamperings that you have showered upon me, like a fragile flower being held with utmost care & love by your warm and caring hands! i love all that attention and love that you gave me, i feel so spoilt now, but please continue with it... ;)

i greatly appreciate all your efforts! i want to let you know that you will have my 100% attention, love and care for always! it's my pleasure! (:

ありがとう..
本当にありがとうございます。

A Very Sad Song ):

2009-01-09T19:31:00.001+08:00

安静了 (S.H.E)

An Jing Le

Silenced

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo zhan zai zhe li
Im left standing here with the piano beside me

梦想中属于我们的婚礼
meng xiang zhong shu yu wo men de hun li
The wedding Ive dreamt for us

却成了单人结婚进行曲
que cheng le dan ren jie hun jin xing qu
Has become a solo wedding march

在这场爱情较力的拔河里
zai zhe chang ai qing jiao li de ba he li
In this tug-of-war of love,

爱我还是爱你
ai wo hai shi ai ni
Will you love me or yourself?

你选择了自己 wo~
ni xuan ze le zi ji
You have chosen yourself

撒娇的可爱的
sa jiao de ke ai de
Childish adorable

粘人的爱哭的
nian ren de ai ku de
Clingy crybaby

照片里曾经的都是你喜欢的
zhao pian li ceng jing de dou shi ni xi huan de
[The person] in the photos is everything you once loved

如今我还在原地
ru jin wo hai zai yuan di
While I still remain at the starting point

你却走回你的记忆
ni que zou hui ni de ji yi
Yet you went back to your memories

你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
ni shuo wo ai ni tai duo jiu kuai yao ba ni yan mo
You said I love you too much, youre nearly drowning

你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
ni hai pa xing fu duan zan yi miao jiu beng luo
You fear happiness is only for an instant, that it will fall apart in a second

分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
fen kai shi yi zhong jie tuo rang ni hao hao de xiang guo
Separation is a release; it will make you think

我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我
wo xiang yao de na pian tian kong ni shi bu shi neng gou gei wo
Whether you can give me the happiness I want

你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
ni shuo wo gei ni tai duo que bu neng gei wo shen me
You said I give you too much, but you cant give me anything

分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
fen bu qing ji qing cheng nuo yong heng huo mi huo
Cant tell passion, commitment, eternity and infatuation apart

爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
ai qing shi yi dao shang kou wo men ge zi ku tong
Love is a wound, we bear the pain on our own

沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你
chen mo shi wo zui hou wen rou shi yin wei wo tai ai ni
Silence is my last act of kindness because I love you so

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo zhan zai zhe li
Im left standing here with the piano beside me

梦想中属於我们的婚礼
meng xiang zhong shu yu wo men de hun li

The wedding Ive dreamt for us

安静了在我枕边的梦里
an jing le zai wo zhen bian de meng li
Was silenced in the dreams of the person beside me

我知道相爱原本就不容易
wo zhi dao xiang ai yuan ben jiu bu rong yi
I know loving someone isnt easy to begin with

爱不是一加一
ai bu shi yi jia yi
Love is not one plus one

努力就有结局 wo~
nu li jiu you jie ju
[Where] hard work guarantees a happy ending

撒娇的可爱的
sa jiao de ke ai de
Childish adorable

粘人的爱哭的
nian ren de ai ku de
Clingy crybaby

照片里曾经的都是爱着你的
zhao pian li ceng jing de dou shi ai zhe ni de
[The person] in the photo once loved you

脸颊的泪还温热
lian jia de lei hai wen re
The tears on my cheeks are still warm

却没有人握我的手
que mei you ren wo wo de shou
But no one is here to hold my hand

你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
ni shuo wo ai ni tai duo jiu kuai yao ba ni yan mo
You said I love you too much, youre nearly drowning

你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
ni hai pa xing fu duan zan yi miao jiu beng luo
You fear happiness is only for an instant, that it will fall apart in a second

分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
fen kai shi yi zhong jie tuo rang ni hao hao de xiang guo
Separation is a release; it will make you think

我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我
wo xiang yao de na pian tian kong ni shi bu shi neng gou gei wo
Whether you can give me the happiness I want

你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
ni shuo wo gei ni tai duo que bu neng gei wo shen me
You said I give you too much, but you cant give back

分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
fen bu qing ji qing cheng nuo yong heng huo mi huo
Cant tell passion, commitment, eternity and infatuation apart

爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
ai qing shi yi dao shang kou wo men ge zi ku tong
Love is a wound, we bear the pain on our own

沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你
chen mo shi wo zui hou wen rou shi yin wei wo tai ai ni
Silence is my last act of kindness because I love you so

2009-01-05T11:13:00.000+08:00

wah.. reached home like 3+ last night.. hardly felt my eyes close, and its time to wake up dy! >_<
got a gathering with baobei and his colleagues, last day working tgr due to certain reasons.. hah~ so anyway, ordered so much food, almost couldn't finish if not for that 'hero'. heee..

oh god, i cannot afford to stay out till wee hours so often, the cab fares are burning a huge hole in my pocket. my income is still not able to keep up with that ya, imagine midnight surcharge everytime i take cab (approx. S$20~S$24 per trip). freaking expensive! taking cab is still under my luxury tab.

speaking about luxury, that reminds me of my new love (bag lah; don't get the wrong idea).

finally laid my hands on my dream bag - LV Speedy 25 which my lovely mom bought for my BD. heh.

but horrors! i saw others carrying the LV speedy around, the handles and leather parts had turned into a rotten orange color! oh god, i don't want mine to be the same ya... cos i learnt that the leather that LV uses will actually changes color (to a warm honey brown as described by LV, but NO! to me, it looks like rotten orange) as the leather seasoned. i like my speedy to stay the color as it is - light beige handles and trims that looks most elegant. i might as well bought the fake synthetic leather LV so that the color will stay like that FOREVER!

*p.s. baobei bought us a matching hp socks that is so cute! heh.. (:

A New Year, A New Start

2009-01-01T23:40:00.003+08:00

as 2008 draws to a close, i must say that it has been a rather eventful & rocky year for us.

much have happened recently.

most of the time, i was the one who started the quarrels.

i was unreasonable and too headstrong. and i know that u have compromise and tried hard in putting up with me. but still, i continued standing firm on my thoughts, insisting on what i thought was right.
though, most oftenly, i regretted what i had said and done.
i know i was wrong, but somehow.. i will find something else to start a quarrel on.

i can feel that u are tired, just like me. like you have said, i have been crying everyday recently..
but i sincerely want to apologise to you for whatever i have done to u.

u have grown and matured throughout these 18 months, you have made appropriate changes. whereas i'm still stuck at one, neither maturing in my thoughts nor actions.

i still love you very much, even more so now.
i can feel my love growing for u as the time passes.

i know you have been really patient to me, forgiving my wilfulness all the time.
i hope u will not give up on me, as i will not too.
i don't want and can't afford to lose you.

i promise i will be better, please hold my hands and guide me through this tough time.

a new year, a new start

in this 2009, i hope it will be a fruitful and great year for us both.

i love you, Saiful.

being sick -> sucks

2008-12-26T22:18:00.003+08:00

I'm SICK!!

ahh.. been not feeling too well since last weekend, 'forced' to stay at home and rest.
but my condition worsen as day goes by... finally can't accept the fact that i might be spending my coming weekends and my birthday lying on bed with a cold towel on my forehead, went to see a doctor before gg to work today.

the doctor wanted to give me 2 days MC, but duh, too bad tmr is sat.. anyway, if not for my promise to customers to arrange for their orders to be delivered to them today, i'll have go str home to Zzz..

and now i'm feeling the fever now,, the doctor abit cock, check at the pt of time no fever, so he didnt give pills for fever. all the others will prescribe some fever medicine for the patient if they showed signs of sorethroat and flu.. but not this man here.
and goodness, is the bill expensive.. wonder what PROFESSIONAL CONSULTATION did he gave me.......................................................

fucking hell of a day

2008-12-17T23:50:00.003+08:00

as Christmas gets nearer, my life in December getting suckier by the minute!

ITS a FREAKING BAD DAY!!

- totally NOT my day! -

and the day just gets worse and WORSE as it passes by!

especially the last few minutes of the day and first hour of the next.

stop talking to me like i'm stupid.

was i wrong in saying out what i feel.

goodness, sorry i made you feel like you are talking to some idiot.

sorry for making you think that i'm testing your patience!

great! now you know exactly how i felt.

Please excuse yourself!

♥GEnTINg!!

2008-11-21T23:10:00.004+08:00

i'm back!!!

was a little reluctant in blogging this entry.
no, not because i had a lousy trip, in fact, its just the exact opposite.
it is really because i enjoyed it too much, so much so that i'm feeling very moody right now that i'm back in this country (without my baobei to hug so oftenly), that just by trying to recall and remember the details of the trip to create this entry, makes me even more sulken.

not fair! i waited soooo long for the day to come~ but when it arrived, it flew past in the blink of an eye!! i have not had enough fun yet =(

i want the time to stop at Tuesday, 18th November 2008!!!!

alrights, enough of the whining.since sulking will not change the fact that the trip is over and i'm back in s'pore, i might as well look forward to the next trip (goodness knows when will that be ... )

ღOur Little Getaway - Gentingღ

- 17th November 2008 (Monday)

yeah! its like a dream come true for me! finally the long awaited day arrived. i reached boon lay at around 650am. at around 655am, i received a call frm my blur sotong baobei saying that he had reached too! i was elated as i knew then it really wasn't a dream.730am sharp, and we are on our way to the custom.
reached there at around 230pm, queued nearly for 1hr for the keys to the hotel. but i don't really mind as bb is with me, i was too happy to let the impatience take over me. but my greedy stomach doesn't think likewise - it was wanting to be heard (growling).
after a little drama and upon settling down, we met up with bro's classmates and we went to explore and have our early dinner. wow, Genting has expanded since my last trip there abt 2 yrs ago. went to Ripley's Believe it or not and had some fun there. especially my bb, seems like he enjoyed taking funny photos.. hee =P

went back to the hotel to wash up and again - after some 'drama' - watched shows while cuddling up, and soon the 1st day ended with a sweet dream.

- 18th November 2008 (Tuesday)

woke up at 7am!! eh~ i mean was supposed to wake up at 7am, but think we woke up like half an hr later. hee. do a quick wash up and we were out of the room! we were going to the theme park^^ the first ride we took was the Cyclone.. we tried almost all the rides, including the ever popular Corkscrew and the Spaceshot..

we took the corkscrew and spaceshot at around 7 ~ 8pm, woo, its so cold and foggy.
only bro, bb and me were the bravest of them all! hahaha~
and my baobei surprised me with his braveness by wanting to go on the spaceshot a 2nd time - as there weren't much people at that time, the staff allowed us to stay on the seat for a 2nd round. lol~
it was very scary if u look down, the most scariest moment was when you are being taken up and waiting for the drop - which you do not know when is it~ the feeling of suspense was too great, my heart was pumping very fast at that time.
after dinner, we walked around and went for some indoor rides, including bumper cars and euro express. we returned to the hotel - tired but happy that the day turned out great.

- 19th November 2008 (Wednesday)

the inital plan was to go to the theme park again, but we decided to follow the rest to the temple down the hill.

i did not regret this decision as the scenery was beautiful. the air was fresh and there were much to explore.

played bowling after that. it was my first time playing bowling (not counting the time where i randomly had a go at it). somehow all balls that i held gained lifes of their own. they like to go left and as a result, often ended up in the 'lang gao'. lol~

but my baobei is so good at it, i was impressed. hee.

my arms, hands and thumb was sore and aching after a few rounds =(

but i had to agree that it was fun. hee.

oh and abit of sidetrack, my moodiness started while i was playing bowling =(

because its considered the last day/night, and i will have to return back to my mundane routine -work.. =(

ate dinner and shopped around after this, searching for a nice jacket for my teddy bear. finally found the appropriate one, he looked so cute and handsome in it. hee.

went outside to experience the coolness of the night of Genting. as the sun goes down, the temperature went down drastically. thick fog surrounded us, it was kind of hard to see the road. took some photos before returning back to the hotel.

washed up and went to catch a midnight movie - 130am

the movie quality was the worst that i had ever seen in my life. its like they were running on those super old filmstrips. i thought that was the worst, but 20mins into the movie and suddenly it went black. my bb was pissed (he was alrdy pissed as he got abit headache frm looking at the subtitles which kept jerking up and down), but i only found it amusing. haha~ but he didn't last long as some people in front started giving funny comments. we burst out laughing. then, the film 'miraciously' came back, first silent, and then the sound came back. hahaha, i found it was quite an experience, because i think that i probably would not have the chance to experience this in s'pore. but quite a boring movie, almost fell aslp. hee.

- 20th November 2008 (Thursday)

aww. the dreadful day finally arrived, i so much don't wanna get up from bed, away from my baobei's warm hug. ate breakfast and soon we are on the coach, back to s'pore. my mood dropped and i want to sob and sulk.. boo hoo~ there, back to my moodiness again.
don't wanna think about it anymore.. unless there is another upcoming trip, den perhaps my mood will brighten up again..

I really enjoyed this trip very much, it will stay forever in my mind, as a part of our memory.

thank you baobei for agreeing to go on this trip and making an effort to apply for leave, and more for spending so much time with me. i thoroughly enjoyed days with you by my side, things would have been so much different if you weren't there.

I love you so much baobei~ I will treasure you for always.

2008-11-11T20:14:00.000+08:00

counting down... 6 more days!!!

a bad halloween night ..

2008-11-01T20:36:00.001+08:00

met up with something yesterday that left us both in in heat and rage.

i was fuming and worried at the same time.
i don't know which is more, but i guessed that worrying for his safety eventually takes up a larger space in me, which is the reason why i held onto him so tightly, afraid that if i let go of him, i will lost him too.

but once again i was frustrated with myself, even though i was clearly being picked on, there was nothing i could do except feeling angry. i felt really helpless. i couldn't even find the courage to stand up for myself.

why am i so useless.

i didn't think that in this era, there will still be someone like him who are so narrow-minded.
even though i know that some will not approve of this, but never in my life did i expect this to happen. i was not prepared to face this. it was like a slap on my face that woke me up from my perfect dream, only then i started to ponder.. how much more of these will happen to us again... am i ready to face these discrimination?

Status: Attached Single

2008-10-30T23:04:00.002+08:00

feeling super down, moody and ultra neglected!~
its like back to being SINGLE again.

should find some fun to keep myself occupied with.

it seems like eternity~ if only...

2008-10-21T00:35:00.001+08:00

a minute seems like an hour
a day seems like eternity...

when will this gonna end?
why can't i get a grip and go on with my life as per normal, why let this bother me much more than it does to others? despite the many reminders i gave myself, i'm unsuccessful; a total failure.

i just wish for some fast forwarding in life - i will not regret, as i know there is nothing much that will happen in the middle worth looking out for.

if only, i have the ability to control time.
if only, months fly as fast as a mere flip of the calendar page.
if only, i know what will be happening next.
if only, i can look into my future.
if only, i hold the power to change how the world operates.
if only, money is worthless.
if only, life is only about joy & happiness.
if only, there is 'if only'.

if only...

being Forgotten is like constantly picking at the Scar ... where the Wound re-opens ...

2008-10-15T00:43:00.007+08:00

~~who~~ what am i?

so easily being forgotten...

... just goes to show where i stand in his heart

where his work will always be the priority ...

am i of such an insignificant?

why can't i do the same?

suffering from the pain & hurt ...

... it is deeper than you think

and i'm more vulnerable than you thought i were

in this world, who truly cares about me?

2008-10-06T17:25:00.001+08:00

when my gaze met his, i can't help but smile lovingly, my eyes glistering with tears of joy.

i held him in my arms tightly, silently vowed never to let go.

we are one step closer to our future.

Shamain feels very blissful :DDD

you are my precious, how can I live without you..

GOSSIPING is BANNED!!!

2008-10-06T14:32:00.002+08:00

I'm telling you, I HATE GOSSIPERS!!!!

those 三姑六婆.. Gossip like fishmongers in the market.
don't they have any other thing to do? other than gathering downstairs with all the other KPOs sharing the 'juiciest' gossips; which family, which floor, which UNIT, how many children, which school, change bf/gf, family quarrel or occasion, the time they leave the house daily, happenings in the families etc…. Seems like nothing can escape their eyes! they are even better than the police division huh?! they are called the walking and talking CCTV!!!!! LMAO, f***! don't know where the hell they got these information from.. better than fortune tellers sia!

so free, then go and gossip, kpo and spread rumours arh? kaoZ! So free, come my hse sweep the floor and do housework larh! Anyhow talk and spread rumours, spoilt ppl's reputation. In more serious cases, can even create family quarrels, ok!? Don't know the serious consequences that may result, better SHUT that trap of yours up!

KaoZ! Then what? Now all of the innocent people must be very careful liaoz huh? Everytime you step out the house, you are being spied on!! Don't think that you are outside of your neighbourhood, all will be safe. NOPE! you might meet some of their 'networks'! Remember that you have absolutely no privacy at all.

these loudmouth people must be very lonely at home, husband, children all don't want to talk to them, so no choice have to go downstairs and 'chat' with other loners. jealous of other families' blissful and well-being, they also spread some untrue rumours, in hope to turn some other families to be like them. PURE EVIL!

To HELL to all these stupid AUNTIES who live everyday for the purpose of destroying other people's life!!!!!

don't let me recognise your face! you are warned!!!

How I spent 1st October - probably the most boring post ever.....

2008-10-02T02:52:00.001+08:00

1st October is Children's Day. This year, Hari Raya Puasa falls on the same day too.

unlucky~ he had reservist on this day.
his family had gone house visiting, leaving poor baby alone at home. so i decided to accompany him.

reached around 1145am, bought McDonalds for brunch (McSpicy meal for both of us =d). baobei should be sleeping in the day, as he is having night shift, but because of me, he don't want to take a nap, hee. instead, we watched drama - My Girl.

at about 530pm, we took off to PCG @ Loyang. a really ulu part of the s'pore, i nv tot exist. lol. i thought pasir ris downtown east was the furthest liao.. any further, drop inside the sea alrdy =p

after watching baobei went in, i took cab over to Pasir Ris MRT. realised i was very hungry, bought a cute doughnut with 3 Honey Bees on top. it was very tasty =)
got myself another chicken bites from WaterRise. the portion was very small for $2, well, at least it was delicious and crunchy. hee. walked around WhiteSands till ard 730pm. took train from one end to the other - JP. i felt the train journey was fast, even though it is abt an hr plus.

shopped ard JP, bought a pair of slippers, 2 ribbon bra stripes (been looking for them), 1 shorts, and one........
was looking around for mummy's present too.

went to take bus, waited for quite some time. when the bus came, only to find that my ez-link under value. urghh, came out of the bus to top-up card. and waited again =XXX

i tell you, JP is like 'LITTLE INDIA' lor........................
right from the MRT platform, you are surrounded by them! left, right, front, back!! when you look below while taking the escalator down, you can hardly find an empty space, cos it is all filled with them..... haiyo~ luckily they don't wander inside the shopping centre.. only at the MRT Station and Bus Interchange..... i think over at JP, everyday is Deepavali... lol!

Jack's Place

2008-09-26T22:12:00.008+08:00

baobei's reservist eventually started this wednesday. so hate his schedule, damn lousy. think he used up all his luck during his last *pouts*

met up with him yesterday, and we had a tiff. well, i shall not elaborate much here, as it all started with sth stupid and the whole quarrel was seriously ridiculous. mostly, i was at fault, but just too stubborn to admit. and also seeing the way he reacted immediately caused me to fire up. shit, talk about two headstrong ones trying to stick together - they just don't compromise.

anyway, after one long and uncomfortable 'talk', we made up and went for our dinner (truth was, i was starving like i had not eaten for days). we went to Jack's Place @ The Heeren. It's been very long since i stepped into one, and i really lost touch with what they have to offer, i only knew there are steaks and more steaks.

i opened up their menus, and was at a loss, i can't make up my mind on which to order. i was hoping for a nice dessert, but their dessert menu was disappointing, nothing special or out of ordinary. no chocolate fondue too.. what was i thinking huh... =(

finally set my mind on ordering 'Steak and Catfish', whereas baobei ordered 'Mixed Steak', as he too can't make up his mind on what he wants =D it comprises steak, bacon, lamb chop, chicken, hot dog etc.. quite a nice combination for a meat eater.. heh heh...

they are sloooowwwwwwww in serving, my tummy was growling hard as the time ticked by, trying hard to not look at the deliciously-looking garlic bread that they provided us with. kept myself busy taking photos of my cute baobei..

- a little bit of sidetrack

haha, oh my gosh, he look so cute with his 'specially for reservist' haircut =P and i can keep touching his hair! yay! cos usually he will use gel to hold up his hair and i cannot touch it when he does that =( *baobei, i don't mind, you ~~can~~ must keep your hair this way for as long as ~~you~~ i like. hee..*

ahhhh... food finally arrived, sizzling hot on hotplate. i'm not sure but i think it's just me, i personally don't like their steak or their way of food serving. after a few mouthful, i felt sick of the taste. there isn't any coleslaw or salad or fries to go with their steak, only meat. i requested for 'medium well', but still tot it smelled a little bloody. sure there was this whole potato, but it doesn't have the refreshing taste that coleslaw offers. i don't like their catfish too.. tot the meat tasted a little fishy.

hmm~ frankly speaking, i did thought that those western food that you can find in foodcourt tasted much more better. and they are wayyyyyy cheaper than Jack's Place. hahaha. well,,, i guessed expensive food just doesn't suit my tummy and my taste buds.
baobei said that the food on his plate were not that nice too, but he like their steak.. hmm~ i just wanted nice and pretty dessert!!! =(

but their service was great! nice and helpful staffs, refilling your glass of water, any request was done promptly. good service!

- while waiting for our food =)

- steak and catfish

- mixed steak

The Love of My Life

2008-09-22T23:52:00.002+08:00

after spending 3 days straight with my baobei.. i'm missing him already.

i don't mind spending time with him 24/7.. hee. how nice will it be if only we can heck care about money,, den i don't have to work, and will be able to stick to him like a super glue, a bee to honey or a koala bear to a tree.

such a nice week, met up with him for so many days. and 3 days might seem long to you, but it just flew past like its non-existant. why does the weekends past so fast?! and the weekdays seems forever. hate it!!!

i hate this week too.. can't see my baobei, cos he gg reservist.. and goodness knows when his reservist is gg to end (can't rmb the exact date, i just know its freaking long, like 2~3 weeks?) .. sat night i started to be moody liao.. and can you imagine sunday.. and sunday night.. hais.. so dread the starting of the week =(((

*************************

it's true how my world revolves around him, and him only.

i'm a goner without him, like a light without the light bulb, a moon without the stars, a world without the colours; a Shamain without the heart, the direction, and the purpose of living.

my world used to be in black and white, mundane and without a cause.

one day, he came into my life, he undid the tangles in my heart, he taught me how to love a person wholeheartedly, he proved that there are things such as real love.

i started to see things in a different light.

i realised how beautiful the world is, and i knew the reason i came into this world.

saiful baobei,, you are all to me..

THE BEST CAT VIDEO YOU'LL EVER SEE

2008-09-21T01:39:00.001+08:00

I Love Cats!
they are just so curious about everything ;)

disappointed with Singpost

2008-09-18T00:15:00.004+08:00

went to view our new office yesterday. we are scheduled to shift on either end of this month or beginning of next month. the office is much bigger as compared to the current one as the entire floor is dedicated to only the work stations and nothing else. however, i still felt that it was a tad cramped, and there are far too many indivdual rooms than really needed, so these took up some spaces too. the setting of the work desks are such where one will be sitting next to each other, which i find there will be lesser privacy for all. i still prefer our current work stations as one is situated quite a few distance from another. plus, i prefer how they looked too.

fyi, we always have incoming shipment from our main production site, Switzerland every week.
anyway, today around 10+, i received a call from Singpost regarding our shipment. it turns out that our carton was torn and our items inside have come out of it. normally, they will send the parcel over, but this time round if they do so, it is an assumption that we have accepted and no compensation will be given should you later found that some of your items are missing.

we asked them to shoot some photos and email us for reference before we decided whether or not to make a trip.
but at that pt, i was already thinking that it must have been really bad, as usually even if there are some tore at the corner, they will just send over to us without informing.

true enough when i saw the photos that they sent, i was like.. "omg.. are you sure that was my shipment?" the carton was damaged beyond redemption!!! ('exclusive' photos below)

hence, we have no choice but to go to Paya Lebar Post office personally and check on the items, one by one.fortunately, none of the items were missing, which i find it quite amazing, as the carton was totally damaged, and the remains looked just like plain old junk.

sincerely hope that Swisspost and Singpost will take further care into shipping our items as this isn't the first time it happens, only that this time round, it was the worst.

monday BLUES again

2008-09-15T14:32:00.000+08:00

it's Monday again!
but i'm not really feeling the blues today, in fact i'm still quite happy and positive about this week!
not surprising though.. as my baobei gonna meet up with me after my work. and he is so sweet larhz, woke up early just to msn with me, as he knew that my monday is boring, and he wanted to cheer me up!
wah~ so sweeeeeett lei. big KISS for you, MUACKKs!!!
despite the super huge red and painful zit on my nose, just by hearing these, is enough to keep my day going. hee =D

not only that, he got leave on both weekends too! yeah~ i'm so happy (:

i realised i really worry too much.
last sat after baobei sent me back, he had to rush to JB because of some issue.
i was so worried, as it was already very late at night, and the journey from the check point to the destination was like 1hr plus.
when i knew that his friend was going to drove him, i got more worried, haha.. somemore the reception not good, cannot even sms.
i couldn't get to sleep till nearly 5am. by 520am, i rec a sms by baobei notifying that he had reach home, whew~ and i can ease my mind.
even though i was kinda worried for the unnecessary, it proves that you truly meant so much to me (:

Chocolate Fondue - anyone?

2008-09-10T14:23:00.001+08:00

* Haagen Dazs's Chocolate Fondue!!!*

i'm so so so craving for Chocolate Fondue!!

and the most important criteria is the fondue must have ice creams to dip!

otherwise it will just be a very normal chocolate dip, nothing special.

so far, i've tried New York New York's and Haagen Dazs.

of course! Haagen Dazs wins two thumbs up!!!

the chocolate is so smooth and thick. they have small balls of ice creams in about 4 flavours, cake cubes, chocolate chip cookies and the usual love letters and fruits.

whereas the New York X2 only have the usual dippers - love letters and fruits

chocolate is normal, don't make me feel like glurping down the chocolate. haha.

the quantity is also smaller, about 2~3 person, of course the price is also alot cheaper. that time i ate was about S$17. not sure if the price has been adjusted or not.

whereas, Haagen Dazs can fill about 4~5 person, price is like S$39.95. but i heard that there was a price increase, now should be like S$45.. not too sure though.

anyway, wanted to try Maestro Bistro/ Swiss Culture, but Swiss Culture does not have ice cream.. so ~~Swiss Culture~~.

Think i'll go for Maestro Bistro.

or maybe back to Haagen Dazs.. wondering if they have a smaller set, like for 1~2 pax.

oh.. just saw that Andersen's Of Denmark has chocolate fondue with ice cream too! shucks.. now i'm confused again.

* Andersen's Of Denmark's Chocolate Fondue!!!*

-120908-

shucks! just found out today that the place where Maestro Bistro (Cine) is supposed to be, is taken up by Shokudo Japanese Pasta & Pizza. oh well.. one option down then.

The Original "YOU COMPLAIN!" Series

2008-09-08T12:30:00.001+08:00

it's time for ... "YOU COMPLAIN!"

i want to complain!!!!

this week is going to suck big time, i just know it!
i'm soooo used to meeting him at least one FULL day per week.. but, he got no weekends off this week. to add to my misery, he don't want meet me on one of his (2) off days, which is today.. the most dreadful monday!!! immediately, my monday has just become bluer.
he just don't get my point, why choose for it to be this week, where we only have so little time to spend together this wk, and on monday somemore. hais.
i'm already so dreading and hating this week that i'm ready to sob my eyes dry. and now, it has just become worse.

ahhhhhhh... might as well don't meet this whole week, maybe next week.. and the week after.. turn it into a marathon..
you can spend it all for your personal time.
who can understand how i feel. i seriously doubt it.
that's all for my complain. bye.

he don't give a damn!

2008-09-06T00:26:00.000+08:00

FIVE words: -

SElfIsH
iNconSideraTE
UnTHouGhtfUL
inSENsiTivE
NOT CaRIng

ONE question: -
if that person don't give a damn or aren't the least concerned, WHY should I?

i should just go straight to bed right now, sleep my way through the weekends or hang out with friends. instead of staying up waiting, and end up being shoot by sentences such as, "i didn't asked for you to stay up and wait for me, you did it willingly, yet why do i get the feeling that i'm being blamed?" talk about being ungrateful and unappreciated.
oh god! i'm feeling fpeeved! i'm so hot, i'm going to evaporate off into the air anytime.

arghh, shit! this must be my retribution!!!!!

Comex Fair

2008-09-04T16:12:00.000+08:00

my 'efforts' went down the drain! haha. i wanted to go on a diet, as my tummy is too fat!
so yesterday lunch, i decided not to eat. but got really hungry, settled for an apple. omg, after eating that apple, i became all the more hungrier. so craving for mcdonald's fries, that when i met baobei, we rushed to the nearest mcdonald to munch on a real meal!
hmm, there goes my effort. lol! so lacking of determination. no food is like.. killing me ): doubt i'll ever be successful on a diet.

btw! i went to Comex fair on Sunday.
got myself a Toshiba Portégé M800. it was after much hesitation.

one side of me (angel) was saying, "no! you are saving up now. did you forget what we agreed just two days ago, after looking at the cash flow statement?".
but the other side (devil) was saying, "you should get it! it is a good deal, bet you can't find this great deal anywhere else!"
angel: "but.. do i really need it? i mean, i have a computer at home, and its screen is huge, speed is fast, and working great."
devil: "aiya, just get lar, need or not, buy already then say. anyway, i bet you will need it some other time also, why not now?"

haha! there was some commotion inside me -_-lll
and there, i succumbed to temptation of being able to lie on my comfy bed while staying online. the thought was just too good to resist.

before the angel in me has any chance to retaliate, i confirm the purchase and proceed to payment.
and felt my heart aching when the person swipe my card! arghhhh!!!! this has got to be the most expensive toy i got for myself using my hard earned cash!!!! almost fainted when i saw my bank balance *faints*

ahh.. what's done cannot be undone. so i better love my laptop, and treat it well..
at least make my money work for me.

btw! thanks baobei for letting me signed up for the vodafone mobile broadband under your name together with you, cos you don't want to see me disappointed, as i can't sign up because i didn't bring my IC. love you (: *muacks*

i love my new Toshiba Portégé M800! but i LOVE my baobei more. extreme limited edition, only one in the whole universe!!!

Cry On My Shoulder

2008-08-27T11:54:00.000+08:00

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home
You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's a destiny
The best things in life
They're free

Chorus:
But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide

2008-08-22T00:08:00.005+08:00

thinking back on the incident, i'm overwhelmed by the indescribable pain, tears formed involuntarily.

even though it had happened some time ago, i still feel the hurt.

it had left a deep scar on my heart, a painful memory etched in my mind.

knowing myself, it cannot be erased.

'stranded' on an island

2008-08-18T13:45:00.003+08:00

hooked onto TomYam fish slices soup+rice! my first time trying this and almost wanted to eat the same thing for every meal now.
cannot turn this into an addiction. got to resist eating this!

woo~ what a wonderful weekend i had. revisited Sentosa like a tourist. spent our day searching for various places of attractions using the Island Map, boarded the wrong bus, went the wrong direction, even returned a lost bag to the staff (:
nevertheless, we managed to complete all the attractions that were included in our package!
haha, together with baobei, what an enjoyable day it was for us.
can't ask for a better weather, it was not too sunny and hot. it was tiring though, on the journey back, we slept like babies. hee =P

wish this weekend will be this perfect too =D

i feel like the happiest person in the world!~ thanks to darling baobei (:

Boring Day

2008-08-13T15:47:00.001+08:00

One Word: BORING~~~~~

everything is done..
1) report - checked
2) invoice - checked
3) orders process - checked
4) customers' items - where are my items??? not received yet, stupid singpost, shipment delivery is damn slow.

so now i am waiting and waiting for them to arrive, so i can do the sorting and arrange for the shipment to the respective customers.
look at the time, it is only 330pm, and every minute seems like an hour. oh, and i thought yesterday was thursday already. lol~ so fast wishing for weekend to come.

what to do now? if i'm too free, i might end up spending money orh! through online sprees, that is. so i try not to visit those blogsprees =X
listening to some random love songs now. haha.
if i like some of the tunes and melody that i hear, i will search for the lyrics. bcos i have this problem, i cannot listen to the lyrics of the song, i MUST look at the lyrics, if not i will not know what they are singing. lol~ so bad right.

ordered pizza and KFC delivery to celebrate Sunny's birthday. was so looking forward to eating, but didn't eat much in the end, all because i got the part of the chicken that i don't like to eat.. chicken breast meat =( so tough and dry, don't know who will like this kind of meat. yucks. my lunch was ruined! but still enjoyable though (excluding the eating part), thanks to all my humorous colleagues.. lol! their conversation, though lame, but so funny, laugh like nobody's business (literally NOBODY's business, as the saying goes, "when the cat is out, the mouse comes out to play" if you get what i mean).

i think everytime i wear jeans, it is bound to rain. and i really hate it! cos the bottom part will get dirty with the rain water and your legs will feel very cold if you go into an air-conditioned room, making you shiver involuntarily. shall reduce the no. of times i wear my jeans. got abit of sniffle today, might be due to the rain. achoo! urghhh..

oh great, my stocks came.
till then~

Can't live my life without YOU..

2008-07-27T04:30:00.008+08:00

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!

Saiful Azfar ♡♡ Shamain

Everything in life is temporary,
as everything changes.
That's why it takes great courage to love,
knowing it might end anytime
but having the faith it will last forever.

Love is not about finding the right person,
but creating a right relationship.
It's not about how much love
you have in the beginning
but how much love you build till the end.

You may never know
how important you are to me
or how much I care for you,
but you are and you will always be.
Bear in mind that I couldn't afford to lose
someone I've learned to care about so much.

I love you,
these three words could change our lives forever,
but for you,
I will take that chance.

The rose that you gave me has faded,
and wilted away.
But, the love tucked in deep inside
remains in my heart forever.

Being in your arms makes me feel
as though I am truly in heaven
showered in an endless rain of happiness.
I love you, Saiful baobei.
You're my heaven for eternity.

thank you for being by my side, i treasure the love we shared; i will love you for always.

STUPID PPL!!!

2008-07-23T00:24:00.000+08:00

I HAD A BAD DAY!!

OH........ WTF???????????????????

I've typed an at least 300words essay,, but it is all being deleted!!!!!!!!

Alright, maybe it is just a good sign for me to not get into trouble!

insecurities

2008-07-18T21:41:00.002+08:00

after the incident yesterday, it struck me that I've become more fragile and insecured ever since that fateful day.
the slightest action can stirred up the unwanted memory that I've tried so hard to suppress it, and i will feel down and pessimistic all of a sudden.
as much as i try not to think about it, it remains deep rooted in my memory, and i doubt it can ever be fully erased for as long as i live.

Sales Regional Meeting

2008-07-15T10:50:00.001+08:00

The past two weeks were super busy for me!
I was involved in organising and coordinating the Sales Regional Meeting.
The preparation was hectic, and last min stuffs kept arising, thus it was hard to keep to my initial plan of doing work.
Then, after the whole preparation thing was finally over... the meeting started.

This yr, the event was held at Changi Village Hotel seminar rooms, 6th July - 9th July.
Trade partners from different countries, together with Members from the Board of Directors from our holding company in Switzerland, came to grace the event.
It was an eye-opener for me. Though busy, i enjoyed the process and the result was satisfying and fulfilling.

As the venue is super far from the plc that i live, i checked into the hotel room for the whole 4 nights!!
SHiok!!~~
i really loved the plc. minimal traffic, peaceful, nostalgic..
The food was delicious, service was great, there is hardly anything i can complain of.

however, regardless of how beautiful the plc was.... i still miss my home, my bed, my mum.. and not forgetting my dear beary... hee.

will the curse takes effect again?

2008-07-05T16:46:00.001+08:00

as the date draws near, i'm starting to lose confidence, especially when these things starts to happen. will history repeat itself?

my heart was and still is in pain.
regardless of the number of times, whenever my mind revisits the scene, i still feel a sharp stab onto my heart.
never did i think that he will do this to me. it was just a small issue, and yet.

before, he told me that if it was another person, he will do it without hesitation, but he just can't bring himself to do it when its me. but see what happens now.
that is why, i knew its starting, i will be treated for granted as the time starts to pass by.

my heart is shattered.

i'm really deeply hurt this time..........

Irritating Flu....

2008-06-17T15:38:00.002+08:00

another boring day for me,, dying here in office. waiting desperately for the clock to strike 17:30.
the annoying flu bug got me again ):
despite all the large no. of sneezing and sniffing,, i couldn't resist the bubble tea @ KOI (Toa Payoh HUB),, then stupid hiccups decided to join into my misery. hiccuping plus sneezing altogether,, and the shoulder muscle ache is killing me,, slowing down my work. how much can a person handle? blehh..
needing some injections to boost my immune system urgently.. *winks* hee =P

ahhh.. that reminds me sth.. he is being really sweet these few days/weeks.. BUT! he will be even better if he minus off the torturing part. hee.

I've got the Sweetest Guy!!

2008-06-10T21:32:00.000+08:00

just before he came to fetch me from work, he took the trouble to travel to Bugis and got me my favourite drink, just because i told him i wanted to drink jasmine milk tea badly.

handed me a 4GB thumb drive with loads of games for PSP, just because i told him i got nothing interesting to play, except for the virtua tennis.
together with the games, he also loaded on 15 episodes of Naruto Shippuuden anime to chase my boredom away whenever he is not with me (:

that's why i always say, lucky me, i've got the sweetest guy on Earth.

Hands Off!!! He's Mine ((:

.. he's coated with sugar.. ~SwEeT sWeEt~ .. he's the honey, i'm the bee (:

Delicious Food Alert!!

2008-06-08T04:47:00.000+08:00

went to a western restaurant on friday for lunch, a farewell lunch for one of our colleague who has been with the company for nearly 18 years.

one look at the restaurant, you can tell that it was not going to be cheap, something slightly higher than the pricing in Swensen's and comparable to Jack's Place.

BUT!!

when i was handed the menu.. wow! i couldn't believe my eyes, the prices were unbelievable.
you could get a black pepper chicken at only S$6.50; steak at only S$7.20!!!!!
it comes with 2 sides, which you get to choose; mashed potatoes, coleslaw, onion rings, fries, baked potatoes and the list goes on...
cream of mushroom soup was only at S$2.80.
drinks - S$1.80 only or you could order ice water at only S$0.30.

i ordered the salmon, which was S$12.90 and right after i ordered my sides (fries and coleslaw), i was thinking, oh shit, shouldn't have ordered the fries cos i thought that it will be those fat and soft crinkle cut fries, which i hate. and i also got the impression that with prices like that, the portion must be very small.

BUT!!!!

once again, the restaurant surprised me!!!!!!!!
to my amazement, the fries are straight-cuts and sprinkled with red chili powder, one bite and it went crunch in my mouth! YEAH! and to add to that, the sides were really huge!!! the big portion of fries, plus a big glob of tasty looking coleslaw laid in front of me... WOW!!!

not forgetting to mention that the cream of mushroom was really thick and full of ingredients that you can really bite it between your teeth. not like those that are too watery... eww.

the food was really delicious and the serving was big, and their service was not too bad, quite prompt. oh!!! almost forget one important detail!! you can eat as much as you like without worrying about the final bill as you pay what you see on the menu, because!!!! there are NO service charge at all AND GST are already included in the price!!!!! how great is this??!
this restaurant just enjoys giving us the sweet surprises eh?!

this restaurant is no doubt the best, better than Swensen's. i will definitely make a trip there again.. but, only problem now is, how to get there (cos went there in colleague's car). hahaha~

oh yeah.. forget the most important information of all,
the name of the restaurant is Astons Specialties.
located at opposite Katong Mall (alongside East Coast Rd).
hmm, almost reluctant to share this piece of information. hee =P

for tempting food photos, click link below
Astons

B'day!

2008-06-01T11:15:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SAIFUL AZFAR!! (:

happy birthday to you. happy birthday to you. happy birthday to my sayang. happy birthday to you :D

how being stubborn can endanger your r/s

2008-05-29T01:08:00.000+08:00

long since i blogged, as i've been rather busy nowadays.
all tied up with lots of stuffs.

having quite a no. of arguments with him recently.
perhaps, the period where lovers are said to be 'blinded to each other's weakness' is starting to fade away.

i'm sure it is my side of the problem, regardless of whom the person is, all these will still happen. i'm thinking i am the one who's often not understanding enough. i know i've been like this ever since young, where i'll like to have all the attention. though i know this is not possible, but as we grow, i did not change my way of thinking. still as wilful as ever, although i didn't show it out.

there are times where i wanted to laugh/smile after an argument has ended, but my stubborn ego just refuses to let go. i'll just dwell on the unhappy issue, so i will still appear upset/angry, which only makes the situation worse. when i sense the fault being pointed at me, i'll start to get all defensive and suddenly feel lots of spines growing on me.

i know that he has been tolerant towards me. even though i seldom show it, but deep down, i greatly appreciate it.
thank you dear.
although the characteristics are already binded onto me, i'll try to amend my ways and improve on it. really need your guidance and most importantly, your support.

nevertheless, i still enjoyed your company very much. tried to control myself nowadays and by looking over the tiny details, seems like there is much more happiness and laughter betw us (:
i'm glad its turning out fine and strong as ever.

happily together

2008-05-11T02:37:00.005+08:00

02.05.2008 ~ 05.05.2008

*Sweetest Days Ever*

we're so in love....
thank you, baobei =)

Like You'll Never See Me Again

2008-04-28T00:08:00.002+08:00

this video is touching and serves as a reminder to cherish people i love.

Beware of the Top Relationship Killer

2008-04-23T23:08:00.002+08:00

Came across this 'Relationships for Dummies' book, i picked it up as it looks interesting.

There are alot of theories mentioned in it. Some are just basic knowledge, some as what we already know, just that this book lists them out word by word, so your thoughts get more organized as you read through. although, some i find them quite contradicting.

i've not finish the whole of it, as it is very thick and i seldom have the time to read.
while i was reading, i found this theory to be of some truth to it.

Elements of Compatibility by Importance

This was grouped into 3 different categories:
- Must haves
- Good to have
- Don't need to have

Must haves
The elements in this category is extremely important, direct impact to the relationship, and is very difficult to change.
They are:
- Honesty
- Trust
- Loyalty
- Monogamy
- Maturity
- Psychological health
- Shared relationship goal
- Timing

Good to have
These are moderately important and difficult to change.
The elements:
- Good communication
- Fun & chemistry
- Compatible intelligence
- Physical attraction
- Sexual compatibility
- Similar interests
- Similar investment/power in the relationship
- Similar life goals/plans
- Similar financial views & practices
- Shared history
- Support of family/friends
- Similar culture, race, & religion
- Perseverance

Don't need to have
- Same taste in dressing
- Same neighbourhood
- Same education
- Same politics
- Same marital/family status

I only feel some truth to this, partially.
i beg to differ for some of these categorization.
For e.g., i find 'good communication' and 'similar financial views & practices' to be of great importance, and they should be included in the 'must haves', instead of only 'good to have'.

Monetary issues has always been the no.1 relationship killer, the ultimate root of quarrels.
Mine is of no exception.
we've a 180degree difference in our monetary view, the way we make decisions whether to spend or not. frankly speaking, i'm very much unhappy with his way of spending. i'm not saying that i'm very good at saving, but at least i resist and tried to be disciplined in my spendings and avoid buying unnecessary things. if i can live without it, den that would not be a necessity, but instead, its a 'want' or can be considered a 'luxury'. however, i do, once in a while, allow myself to indulge in the temptation, buy nice and cute snacks and candies etc, or spend on good meals on special occasions. but still, before any purchase, i would think very hard before buying it, just to avoid overspending on stuffs that i can live without or worse, regretting the purchase or end up not using it at all.
true, that he is always able to get a reason to support his purchase, however, i find that i couldn't agree with him. you see anything on the shelf, and you immediately think of a way that it is going to help you, and you made no hesitation to buy it. at this rate that you're going, no amount of hard work is going to help you achieve the ultimate goal. because, there are hundreds and thousands of products out there that you thought you require (need). you wouldn't earn enough to get them all, much less to say.. saving up for what you had in mind. with this, i have a strong feeling that this wouldn't even take place in the next ten years, to think i'm naively thinking that this can be brought forward to another year or two, since you sounded so sincere. but words will only be words.. it will not change anything if you don't work for it.
i can see you've tried, but just hoping that we can be more synchronize. i don't wish for our relationship to be jeopardized just because of the disagreement in this issue. however, if we do not come to a conclusion quick enough, i'm afraid both parties will suffer, as no doubt, this issue is an on-going matter.

now, here i am, listening to the songs that were played throughout in my previous job.
reminiscing the days when i was still working in ac........

day @ PP

2008-04-11T21:42:00.004+08:00

went to parkway parade yesterday. coincidentally, it was our 2nd visit to PP for both of us. easily explainable, the place was out of reach, no direct mrt station. but it is quite an alternative to a busy place. there are plenty of eateries, snack shops and restaurants around. finally decided on eating fish & co. didn't shop around much due to the long waiting & dining time we experienced at fish & co. ordered a seafood platter for two, plus a fish & chip. the table was filled with so much food that the first time that came to our mind was, 'we can't finish these.'.. haha. i know about the seafood platter for one, but there isn't any mussels.. managed to finish most of the food except for the fries (quite tasteless, not crispy and can make you super full) and the calamari (too chewy and salty).
the food is satisfactory, price is quite reasonable, since its once in a while for me to have this kinda good meal with him.
took lots of photos and video of him eating. haha. i love to see the way he enjoys his food :)
but of course, the photos are for my eyes only =P

he sort of gave me a surprise.
beforehand, he gave me a white tshirt with some prints of 2 angels and levis' wordings. then, he kept asking if i was wearing it yesterday. didn't suspect anything at all, (not that i'm slow) cos i thought he wasn't one who would do this. haha. den when he came to fetch me from workplace, i still didn't sense anything, until when he turned and get into the lift, did i saw that familiar print on his white shirt. !!! den the whole thing made sense. haha. and the shirt that he gave to me is all the more meaningful, grew to love it even more :) my first ever couple tee :D muacks

really wanted to talk to him on the line, even though we just parted. while waiting, i fell asleep and when i woke up after 10~15mins to reply him, my nose was blocked, yet i kept sneezing continuously. its like breathing through a stuffed furry toy, i felt things clogging up my nose and windpipe. very terrible feeling, i couldn't sleep, even though i'm very tired and my eyes wanted very much to close. my body felt really warm and was perspiring cold sweat. not sure for how long i was kept awake, i managed to sleep.
recalling the nights when i just started work at my current job, i was experiencing the same thing, until i was really worn out. i think i had caught a cold. and this is bad. going to have sleepless nights.
now as i type this entry, the cold is back again and i'm breaking out in cold sweat......

The Worst April's Fool Day Ever

2008-04-02T10:26:00.002+08:00

It was the worst April Fool 'joke' that I've received.
Except that it wasn't a joke. and it wasn't comical at all.

this incident happened on the night of April 1.

i totally cannot understand him!
why must he go to that extent of doing things?
it is way overboard and beyond his job scope and if she continues to be late, how long can he do this to 'help' her?
1 week? 1 month? or is it 1 year??

however hard i tried to think, no matter from which side i view this, i still don't see the point and find it totally ridiculous and redundant.
furthermore, i'm sure none of the girls on Earth, with a sound mind will allow this to happen.

for the first time, i was so overcome with anger, and bitterness as well.
i couldn't think straight. all sorts of negative thinking kept playing in my mind.
i'm so frustrated and irritated.
i really feel like exploding right at that moment.
i wanted very much to scream at the top of my lungs!
however, because it is the wee hours, i couldn't.
thus, i sobbed uncontrollably, crying buckets of tears and throwing all the things on my bed onto the floor. this time round, the tears are bitter and hot.

why will i react so strongly?
imagine suddenly knowing all these in the middle of the night (with no explanation, no heads no tails), how would you feel?
i still cannot get over it.
i get depressed just by thinking of it.

sure, you don't mind if you were in my shoes.
you're cool.

i realised that we really have a different set of thinking.
initially, i thought this will not affect us. but i thought wrong.

when the sweetness doesn't justify the bitterness.

the pain.. i'm going to be scarred for life.

hectic work

2008-03-31T15:57:00.001+08:00

a rather hectic day.

mainly because it is month end, alot of things to tidy up.

things to do:

* REportS!
----1) monthly, weekly, and daily report submission, tidy up at month end and submit!
----2) new reporting system; summarise for all projects.
* Invoicing for this week's shipment
* Informing customers of increase in exchange rates; thus pricing adjustments.
* Create a new price list.
* Booking of hotel in Penang.
* PLUS: 3 whole months of invoices that i've accidentally deleted!!!

=(((
so much to do and what's more, today is monday!!!!
really don't want to come back to work, even though my weekend isn't much enjoyable.

you might be thinking so busy, but this girl still have time to complain on blog.
well..... good time management is all i need! =P

**so please hor.. work is not easy ok. please do not think that i just sit at my desk, shake leg, then every 27th collect money (salary) can le hor. i do work & i'm responsible for it!!!**

though busy, but still can talk and chit-chat.
but he is too busy to be bothered with me, so in the end i had to look for others to chat lo.
so that my work will not be too boring and my monday (hopefully) will not be so blue.

don't know why.. but, sometimes he seems to be so far away, so out of reach.
sometimes it is like .. he has become a stranger that i don't know him at all. like a barrier in between us.
*shrugs*

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

been looking around for phones, finally decided on N82, even though its ugly.
i just got it yesterday.
now that i see it, it is still ugly. lol!
but after much thinking between looks and function, i went for function. haha. quite pointless having a good looking phone but the functions are all sucky right.
however nice looking the phone might be, you will soon grow sick of it.

but i still think my previous Nokia 7390 suits me more. ya know.. dune rose pink and powdery white.. the perfect combination of colors..
even though i only parted with it for one day, i already sort of miss it.
instead with me now, is this cheapo metal looking device.
the button is not as bad as i thought. quite easy to press, no prblem with sms-ing.. maybe my fingers not that big. haha.
one impt thing, now with this monoblock phone, i cannot slam the call with the cover, like i could do with my N7390 flip phone =( (the reason why the cover of my N7390 is a bit loose =x hee)

Numb

2008-03-29T23:28:00.001+08:00

not feeling so well lately..
flu, ulcers, sore throat are common.
making me tired easily.

i keep expecting something each time.
and each time, i'm left disappointed.
time and again.

should i stop expecting things and make myself think that it will come naturally when the time is ripe? maybe i should.
i must be getting used to this cos i don't feel as much as i did previously, considering this has been happening continuously for the past few months.

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
I've become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

i must stay true according to the words i said to myself before:
i shall not allow anyone to determine and affect my mood.

All in a day's work

2008-03-26T23:10:00.001+08:00

so much to do.
so much to say.
so little time.

time never seems to be enough.
i'm running outta time!!!

how stupid, i can't believe i repeated the same mistake again!

Then) my carelessness caused my NDS games to be gone from the computer - reformatted the memory card, after i thought i had copied them to another folder (only to realise that i had copied, but didn't paste. omg.)

Now) i 'accidentally' deleted the whole Invoice folder in my company's server!! *faints*

i dragged the 'Invoice' folder from one to another newly created folder. halfway through the moving, i was prompted to close one of the files that was still opened. after that, i deleted the newly dragged folder since i saw the original folder and wanted to redo the moving. only to find out that the whole folder was empty!!! oh my god. i wanted to faint. go to recycle bin also can't find those deleted files. but.. i considered myself lucky as only files of 2008 are gone. other years not affected. but still, there are a few hundreds of invoices that i've to redo again. lol.
i'm still able to laugh it out though i did shake a little when i realised what i've done. lol.
at least something to do to keep myself busy since i'm like so free. lol~~~
looking at things a little positively, ya know. haha.

i'm still not finished with them yet. might need till friday to complete this extra work.
yeah!
(don't worry, i'm still sound. lol~)

Love.Hurts.

2008-03-12T13:37:00.005+08:00

got drenched again yesterday. already walked abt 2/5 of the distance, turning back into the office is not a solution, will still be as wet, plus i've also gt an appointment time to keep. the minute i boarded the bus, i wanted to get off. it was damn cold and i'm shivering and shaking uncontrollably. To keep myself warm, i stayed still so that my wet clothes will stick to my body and not shift about.
i was taking the outer seat on the bus, and as more n more people boarded the bus, i was thinkin to myself if someone want me to let him/her into the inner seat, what am i gg to do about it. cos once i move an inch, i will be alot more colder as i'm losing heat.

as a result of yesterday, i'm not feeling well now. abit feverish and the cold that im having is really irritating. running nose and sneezing badly. maybe this is some form of retribution - then, they're too kind to me.

i think i've failed as a emotionally attached partner.
tactless. sarcastic. like to be in ctrl. foul mood. and any other things that you might want to add.
i think i better talk less.
the lesser i talk, the lesser mistake i make.

the argument. was so vaguely familiar.. i felt i'm back at somewhere, only this time, i've shifted from the viewer to one of the two who were arguing.

a bad day that i'm having. i felt better by eating chocolates.

I'm bleeding Love

2008-03-06T23:22:00.001+08:00

Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis

Closed off from love, I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough and it was all in vain
Time starts to pass before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened for the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground, found something true
And everyone’s looking 'round, thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say, I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away but they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open
And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

*Love can heal all wounds but there aren't known medicine that can cure wounds caused by love*

Missing U

2008-03-06T23:14:00.000+08:00

As I read through my messages (sent & received) in friendster..
i realised i miss him so much. even though i saw him only yesterday...

;baobei ;baby..

**********************************************
Softly the leaves of memories will fall,
I'll pick them up & gather them all,
'cause today, tomorrow & till my life is through,
I'll cherish having someone like u.

Its a nice feeling, when someone you love, loves you in return.
So when you know the one you love has special feelings for you,
never let them go.
because its one in a million to find 2 hearts that beat as 1.

If I never met you, I wouldn't like you.
If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you.
If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you.
But I did, I do, and I will.

If i were a tear in your eye, i would roll down to your lips.
But if u were a tear in my eye, i would never cry as i would be afraid to lose u!

I love my eyes when u look into them;
I love my name when u say it;
I love my heart when u love it;
I love my life when you are in it.

You want & you get, that's luck,
You want & you wait, that's time.
You want but you compromise, that's life.
You want & you wait & you don't compromise, that's LOVE.

I love the way you make me happy,
and the ways you show your care.
I love the way you say, 'I Love You,'
and the way you're always there.

SMS

2008-03-06T21:36:00.000+08:00

people can easily misunderstood or get misunderstood in a short message service, aka sms, conversation.
what one tried to convey in the sms might be interpreted in another meaning.
this is especially so when people tried to squeeze whatever they want to say into a single message containing only 160 letters.
no full-stops, no commas etc.
worse still, as it is all words only, there isn't any tone involved as in talking in a verbal conversation. this makes it even harder for the speaker to convey the intended message and gives rise to misunderstandings.

there are some ways to prevent this.
the best way is to include some smileys in the message.
why do people bother to create all these smileys if they don't serve a purpose?
they certainly make a difference as you can make use of these to express your exact feelings and to compensate for the lack in tone. thus, your message will get through clearer.

201th Post!

2008-02-28T16:02:00.002+08:00

this is my 201th blog entry... ever since October 2006.
wow~ that is like so long ago, i was still studying in poly then.

i've got not much appetite these days during lunch.
most of the time, i'll only finish half the portion.
and when the time for lunch has passed.. say about an hour later, i'll start to search for anything edible.
an irregular eating habit i have, and i should say that is not very healthy.
haha. i think i'm more health-conscious right now as compared to the past.
so its true then, this health conscious thingy that someone has told me before.
"as you grow older, you will tend to be more conscious of your health. its natural."

my hp has gone bonkers, i think the main problem is the memory card.
maybe some of the files are corrupted or sth.
my only worry is those files (songs, photos etc) that meant sth special to me.
they are the only physical things that allow me to recall back those precious memories.
and i don't want to lose them.

if i off my hp, and try to restart it, it will take about... nearly one hour to be switched on.
it is damn irritating if you are in the middle of a conversation/sms-ing, or waiting for something important etc. you will get really pissed off.

my hp seemed to be giving me more problem than usual today.. so i have no choice but to restart it. and how much time has it passed now? hmm.. 2hours? and it hasn't start up yet. i can almost feel 'it' battling inside the tiny hp compartment. (whatever 'it' is).

err.. to anyone who might have fallen asleep reading this blog entry.
my apologies for not giving a warning at the start.
anyway, i just had too much time on hand.

duh.

my life is being OVERLY CONTROLLED!!!!

2008-02-26T23:28:00.003+08:00

each time when i'm angry and while trying to contain myself, i can feel myself shaking. drawing in quick, sharp breath. my heart pumping hard & wildly. and true to the statement, i can somehow feel my blood boiling. my face gets real hot, and almost... can feel steam coming out of my ears.

i felt so restricted and restrained.
i'm being treated everything but like a 21yrs old adult should be.

i've got NO freedom.

everything is a 'NO'!
this --> no!
that --> cannot!

Please please please..........

stop treating me like a small kid.
i can say whatever reasons to defend my case but, somehow or rather, i know each sentence that i may make, will get shoot down by at least 10 other reasons.

i'm already an adult, i have a life of my own. why is it that you are the one ruling my life???

correct me if i'm wrong in saying that this is the 21st century.
or are we still living in the olden days?

arrghhh.. no use saying this, i can already hear your immediate reactions now.
blame myself for having this kind of life, a life which is being carefully plotted and planned by someone in advance.

i have NO say!!!!!!

i hate myself

2008-02-20T00:41:00.004+08:00

i like this blogskin alot, mainly because it has rainbow, plus bright, colourful pictures.
however, my recent life is far from it.

it feels like my world is turned upside down.
like a roller-coaster.. but mostly it is down in the pits.
my mood is a disaster.
even i can't stand myself, but even knowing it, i still can't help it.
i'll jump at the slightest thing, even the tiniest spark can set me ablaze.

hereby, i sincerely apologise to those who are affected by me, being given the cold-shoulder or got pissed at when they are innocent.

what the hell is wrong with me.
someone help me please.

Breaking Down

2008-02-18T10:47:00.000+08:00

the weekend seems to fly pass in the blink of an eye, soon it is monday again.

alot of things have been running through my mind these few days.
well.. i'm a pessimistic person by nature. all these negative thoughts are really bothering me, its driving me crazy.
all the 'what if', 'maybe', 'can it be'... each time, my stomach will give an involuntary lurch. the only way i can stop all these thinkings is to sleep.
because the minute i'm awake, my brain will start thinking non-stop. therefore, i just forced myself back to sleep.

these are really bothering me alot. making me depressed and such. but to stop it, is easier said than done. because, my mind is acting as if it has a life of its own.

i do not know how to help myself.

CNY '08

2008-02-14T00:27:00.001+08:00

cny 2008 feels just like any other normal days; only that i've got quite a long break from work.

normally, each year before cny, i'll get excited and buy plenty of chocolates and candies, not forgetting to mention love letters, pineapple tarts, cookies etc. soon, every inch of my long coffee table at the living room will be filled with all the goodies.

however, this year is an exception.
don't really have the new yr mood. not sure why too.

anyway..
it has come to my favourite time of the day.
i'm off to bed; tml is going to be boring and dull.

have a joyous & prosperous 2008!

Two Of Us

2008-01-28T17:58:00.000+08:00

way too sleepy today.
most probably woke up too early on a weekend.
had too much fun and exhausted too much energy.
plus, i slept too late.

like a baby, i just wanted to snug into my bb's arms, enjoy the silence and let the world past me by, after a big cry.

i like it just the two of us, snugging up, in a comfy and quiet place, and enjoying the warmness of each other. i'm the most fortunate person on Earth, living without any worries in life.
it's such a nice feeling, hard to describe.
the feeling of being loved; by the person you love.
i feel like a crystal, being held with utmost care in his palm, for fear of breaking it.

i love you, baobei.

Quick Update

2008-01-21T23:41:00.001+08:00

got myself a haircut at Kimage last thursday.
thought this time round i don't want to restrict the hairstylist too much, i did not give any special instructions, except that i showed her the expected length i would like to see at finish.
ended up, she cut it real short and gave me a hairstyle that i have nv worn before.
my first reaction when i saw my reflection in the mirror was, "omg, what the hell has she done to my hair???" thankfully, i did not faint on the spot. haha.

i can tell that my previous hairstyle, though normal, suited me most..
but not much of a regret as what's done cannot be undone.
unless i go for a hair extension..... which would be ridiculous!! taking in mind that the reason why i wanted to cut my hair is to chop off excessive weight and burden on me. haha.

after much resistance, i've finally managed to curb my addiction for ice milo. but.... not long after... i've once again, succummed to the temptation of cold chocolatey liquid running into my mouth and throat.. urghhh..
needing some discipline here.

sometimes, ignorance is bliss.

To My Dearest..

2008-01-09T23:10:00.000+08:00

even though part of your plan had fell through, i'm still very happy because i can see that you took time to think about what to do etc. it is really the thoughts that counts and i'm grateful to you. i can feel the sweetness in my heart when i knew what you had planned to do :)

so bb, please don't be sad or depressed, because i'm not feeling the least disappointed. i'm sure there will be future chances to carry out. the most important issue on hand is that, you are willing to stick with me always ^_^ giving rise to all future opportunities.

will you?

p.s. Thank you for your sweet lil' snow globe. how do you know that is exactly what i wanted? i'm loving it to bits :)

New Year 2008

2008-01-01T20:10:00.000+08:00

this has got to be the BEST new year eve ever!

unexpectedly, i got to spend a day with my bb. initially i thought that i could only see him for a few hours, but was already satisfied with being able to see him on the last day of 2007.
much to my delight, i spent the last few moments of 2007 with him, and to add to that, he was right beside me when the clock striked twelve and the first moment of 2008 arrived.
all these was not in my plan and making it all the more satisfying. i am so contented to having him by my side. really felt this was a day granted for me and i couldn't wish for more.
words can't describe how elated i was and still is.

what a great way to put a start to 2008!
it marks a new beginning in life for me.

i wish you to have a great day and months to come!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

My 20th Birthday

2007-12-30T23:26:00.000+08:00

This year, my birthday is a mixture of emotions.

I thought if that person does not celebrate my birthday for me, so be it. but i'm wrong, i was really hurt. because this has never happen before. then, deep down inside, i'm silently waiting for that someone to wish me happy birthday. but it never came. it seems that the person had even forgotten my birthday. it is so disappointing.

Thank you to those who remembered my birthday (even those whom i've not met up for some time) and sent me those lovely birthday wishes. it makes me so touched and brightened up my birthday, which i've spent alone at home.

My birthday cake - fave: Chocolate!!! with no cream =)

Multi-layered, different forms/textures of chocolates between two layers of crunchy biscuits =p..

Thank you to my beloved friends who are willing to fork out a day of their busy life to celebrate my birthday for me. Although i did not say it out, i'm very grateful towards you all.
though it is a belated celebration, but because of you all, my birthday is not alone, well-spent and all the more memorable.

while people might say 'seeing is believing', there is also another saying, 'what you see, might not necessary be the truth'.

Being A Capricorn

2007-12-30T03:02:00.000+08:00

Characteristics of a Capricorn

Once she is mad she can be very fierce. She can work better than some men and she is a very highly confident woman. In her opinion, woman is not just a flower or decoration at home or at the office and certainly not a weak sex who needs protection.

She likes to control and hide her weak emotions. She will never try to change anyone, but she will learn to accept them as they are. If she does not like someone, she will not comment or criticize but she will completely ignore that person.

She hate plastic and artificial flower because it makes her feel that you are not being sincere. She loves real flower and it's scent. She loves a guy who wear after shave cologne. If you are the type of a guy who wear your jeans one month before washing, or wear an old sneakers, then you can forget about her. She loves music and nature even there is a rare case otherwise. She loves to go picnic in nature, so if you don't have so much time for her, you can take her fishing too.

She is not as jealous as Aquarius or Leo woman, but do not cross the line O.K. Better not to see she gets mad, especially in front of public when she feels like losing face. She loves to make-up and dress perfectly and being neat, so never rush her for this matter. She has her own goal in life and does not care if you have a doctorate degree or not, if she thinks you are not bright then she will not care about you at all. She likes smart people by character not by certificate shown. If you can not show her this quality, go and take a bus and go to the next stop.

She does not like a dreamer who talks about his dream but never put his hands in action to make it happen. Don't bother to tell her "everyone is doing it, you should do it too", or "I think you should do it, it's good for you", because she will only do what she wants to do. She is a neat and tidy person, so if your apartment is a pigsty, do not take her there. If you go out on a date with her , try to be presentable such as wearing a nice clean shirt and jeans, clean nails or else it will be your last date. She is the cool type and will not nag, so easy on your ears. She is a slow but sure type. She will always respect and honor you and will never try to make you lose your face. If she loves you, she will help you in anything you do.

She likes to help people and expect nothing in return. But if she asks you for a favor and does not get one, she will feel very disappoint. She has a high hope and a high faith and beliefs in her own confident than believing in "Luck". If she is your wife, you will have nice and clean home and a gourmet cooking. If your parents visit your house, they will be pleased. She is a 3 in 1 means , a perfect mother, a perfect daughter, a perfect wife or you could say "happily ever after".

How true are these, i do not know.
Why don't you tell me.

I'm A Flower, Soaking In The Rain

2007-12-28T20:50:00.000+08:00

So When Will I See Your Face Again,

When Will You Touch My Life Again,

When Will I Breathe You In Again,

I Think I Love You...Will I See Your Face Again..

(this song is highly addictive..)

Its true when you are moody, you will spend money like nothing.

so please avoid passing by any shops.

lucky thing that the shop i went into only sells all kinds of food and tidbits.

so all those food aren't wasted as i'm going to finish them all.

cheers to junk food!

ii think ii love youuu.. when will ii see your face again..

Returning Back The Favour

2007-12-25T02:19:00.000+08:00

Christmas has arrived.
which means, i've pulled through, finally.
It is not easy.
but what do i get in return???

This is the WORST christmas ever!

why do i need to cry myself to sleep lately, for every single night?
can i push the entire blame to my Stupid period?
surely, i would wake up tomorrow, with extra puffy eyes once again.
damn, i HATE it. all these shit that are making me so pathetically miserable.
i am going to end it.

Loners are often Forgotten and they are tended to be left at home; even for a special occasion like Christmas; while the rest enjoy the company of others. Even if the significant someone isn't there, it is PERFECTLY alright!
It ABSOLUTELY Doesn't Matter at all to them!
They are still, (miraculously!) able to have fun and enjoy themselves to the fullest.

Since SOME other people are capable of doing this, I need to learn how to do it as well.

Will do.
People can Wait and See.

Not Losing Hope

2007-12-24T00:05:00.000+08:00

woke up feeling abit weird today.. my sorethroat that has lasted for a week or so, doubled up with flu. don't really mind the sorethroat, but hate the sickening flu.. made my nose irritated and my eyes watery. hope it will go away by tomorrow.

3 days counting down to Christmas. i hope that it would come and pass ASAP. people do not know the real reason why i wish for it, for they assume that i can't wait for my birthday to come. i don't bother to explain though, don't see the need of doing so.

usually after i've done something, i'll expect some kind of acknowledgement. waiting for a couple of hours.. a day had past.. then, two.. three.. i kept telling myself that.. "ok, maybe not today.. maybe not now.. maybe it will be some other days.. maybe the acknowledgement will be in some other form that i may not know about.." haha. keep deceiving myself and remaining hopeful. i feel silly now as i speak of it.

i'm fragile and need to constantly feel protected and loved.

Trip to JB

2007-12-21T18:35:00.000+08:00

went to bb's relative house, in JB, with him yesterday.
upon reaching Johor checkpoint, it welcomed us with a heavy downpour.

his dad met up with us and drove us there.
wow. am i amazed. the house is big, the surrounding scenery is beautiful andpeaceful.
it is quiet in the sense that if people stopped talking, there would be complete silence. not a single sound could be heard. something i have not experience before in the busy city of Singapore.

the food that they consumed, the house that they lived in, the environment surrounding them, their way of living.. its all different.

all in all, it was an eye-opener and a really fruitful trip. i was able to spend quality time with my bb, and at the same time, experiencing something different. killing two birds with one stone.
however, it could be even perfect if not for the heavy rain throughout the day. i couldn't go out to the open space and walk through the trees and take in the scent of mother's nature.
but still, it was worth my time and i enjoyed myself thoroughly.

-The Memories brought back-

X'mas Dinner

2007-12-19T23:48:00.000+08:00

just came back from the company cum christmas dinner.
at UIC building, level 6.
we were having ala carte buffet. the food is so nice, somemore you can order whatever you like on the menu. yum!

there was this gift exchanging on that day itself.
but beforehand, we have to ballot, in order to know who are we buying for.
this will be kept as a secret, until today.

so one week ago, i wrote down the names onto pieces of papers, and let my colleagues to pick first. in the end, i'm left with two (one for myself, one for my colleague, who was out for appointment).
what an coincidence, we found out today that the last two pieces of paper turned out to be our names and we, sort of picked each other. no wonder he gave that kind of expression and comment when i told him that slip of paper was his; like i was cheating or what. ahahaa.
i too, was a bit shock when i saw his name in the piece of paper i'm holding.

haha. i tink its very fun, also to cultivate and really feel the spirit. plus, everyone will receive something for x'mas.

some of my colleagues brought their families along. they are so cute and fun. quite sticky to me too! they are with different personality, some are bubbly, with lots to talk about, some are quiet, but i could see it in their eyes that they wanted to join in the fun and are equally excited when they see the other kids playing catching with each other.

last but not least, all of us went back with a logcake each from Emicakes.
of course, i chose the durian flavour, as that is what they are famous for!

woa.. too much eating of logcakes and good food these few days.. i'm growing fatter with every bite i take.
but who can resist such delicious and mouth-watering delicacies? not me =)..

Love Quotes

2007-12-16T18:30:00.000+08:00

Perfect love is rare indeed -
for to be a lover will require
that you continually have
the subtlety of the very wise,
the flexibility of the child,
the sensitivity of the artist,
the understanding of the philosopher,
the acceptance of the saint,
the tolerance of the scholar
and the fortitude of the certain.

~Leo Buscaglia~

Love is an act of endless forgiveness,
a tender look which becomes a habit.

Time is too slow for those who wait,
too swift for those who fear,
too long for those who grieve,
too short for those who rejoice,
but for those who love,
time is eternity.

2007-12-07T23:33:00.000+08:00

got drenched in the heavy rain on wednesday when i was on my way to the mrt frm work.
the rain got heavier with every step i took, so regretted not taking the umbrella frm my colleague.
everyone was staring at me when i was running in the rain and so did the people in the mrt when i rushed in the train without drying myself. i was practically dripping water frm my hair and clothes, i could feel eyes staring and fingers pointing. and the train was so cramped, i think no one dared to come near to me. haha.. but i was so paiseh, could not afford to stay in the train for another 30mins, partly cause i'm shivering. so i got out at the next station.

oh god, when i finally got in a toilet and i saw myself in the mirror, i looked like someone who had fallen inside the pool.

gotten a splitting headache in the night that kept me awake most of the time. not forgetting to mention the terrible sorethroat.
the result is two days of MC.

think this is the first time i've taken MC.
i've nv taken MC even when i was in school (hmm, not counting the period when i've got chicken pox, of cos)
i hope i don't get addicted to taking MC.. cause the feeling of not having to go to work is so pleasant. haha.
especially when its the raining season, i've no wish to get out of my cosy bed.

anyway, sorry for the sidetrack, back to what im saying..
even though i've headache, throat infection, body ache, and slight fever, i still thought that two days of MC was abit exaggerating..
haha, but who cares. think i must have appeared to be on the verge of dying when i was with the doctor. Lol.

ahh.. and my bb.. eek.
didn't take care of me.
still want to torture me when i'm sick.

k lar.. understandable.
think he is trying to make use of this opportunity to bully me when i'm weak cause he knows that he can't fight me when i'm fit.
right baobei? =p

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no matter what i do
all i think about is you

Sleepless Nights

2007-12-05T13:54:00.000+08:00

i've been having difficulty sleeping peacefully throughout the night.
always waking up at intervals; 230am, 330am, 5am etc..

scratching my head, trying to find out why.
finally, it hit me.
i knew what made me wake up abruptly in the middle of the night.
but after each time, i will end up going back to sleep again, disappointed.

the cause was so obvious, i must have been stupid to realise it only now.

there is a cure for it, that is, to not have any expectations.

hope i can manage to overcome it.

Indecisiveness

2007-12-04T13:59:00.000+08:00

this is a lesson to me.
to tell me not to hesitiate too much, or i might end up regretting.

or, if i look at it in another point of view..
maybe it is trying to tell me something.

hmm..

don't do things that you might end up regretting.
also, don't regret after action.
you can blame no one, as it is only your own decision.

Stuck Up Life

2007-12-01T18:27:00.000+08:00

i wish that i could find the words to say.
but im speechless.

home alone today..
and i'm loving it..
some peace and quietness, to think and ponder.
i didn't have any food at all, except for the tiny chocolate pie for brunch, which, halfway through, did i realised that it had expired months ago.
still i finished it, anyway no one cares.
don't feel like having my dinner too. so tedious to get out of my hse and buy.

i seem to be crying alot more these days, due to numerous reasons.
with every word exchanged, my dislike for him seems to grow.
everytime a conversation starts, the subject will always be that topic.
it will be followed by some hurtful comments.

and of course, he is not the reason that im crying over. that would just be a waste of my tears. crying only because i felt that i've been wrong, and also the unjust i feel for her. of course he wouldn't want to revert back to previously, the reason is so obvious!
i really feel that i'm very useless, with so many anger boiling inside me and injustice faced, but i can't voice out or retort back. what's the use of plain weeping.
those were also the words he said years ago, and what's with him now.
everything is being said by him; all the craps. and now being taken back. as if he didn't promise them at all.

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reality.
its really that harsh.

what's with that people look for you when they are in need of you, or when they need you to help them with something. when its not this case, they will disappear and you will not hear from them. until, you initiate the conversation, they had no choice but to reply back a few sentences or so, just to get you off their back.

when you need them by your side, to hear about the things happening in your life, your happiness or your troubles and sorrows, more often than not, they are not there for you.
not only friends, even people you love or claims that they love you.

i only feel used.

who really knows what i'm going through everyday.
"No one."

why is my life this messy.
when will i see the light shining through these darkness.

harsh reality

2007-11-25T18:03:00.000+08:00

this is me.
i will point things out - once and for all.
sometimes, i might repeat myself, a second time.

but that is all i would do.
if there aren't any changes made, i would not repeat myself again.
i would leave things as it is.
this applies to almost all the stuffs in life - be it small or major.

i've said my piece.
i've done my part.
when things come to a point where there is no turning back, where no amount of things done could help reduce the hurt caused, or to save the situation.. that's it.

all about dramas - once again

2007-11-25T16:00:00.000+08:00

i've changed my blogskin.
saw one that's really nice and shows exactly how i feel; but too bad, its too complicated. after trying for so hard, had to give up in the end.

anyway, I strongly recommend the movie "Enchanted". The latest movie by Walts Disney.
Its hilarious and the chipmunk is super cute. the prince is damn stupid, bird-brain i think. hahah.. The story plot had its twists and turns. Not forgetting to mention that this movie breaks the tradition that the princess remains steadfast in her relationship and marry the prince in the end. the princess got a chance of heart! LOL~ although, of course, its still a 'and everyone lives happily ever after' ending.

Watching TWO Taiwan dramas currently..

i watched romantic princess until episode 10.. i thought that episode 10 was the last epi, so i was kinda happy that the drama was finally ending and i can get over with it.. but.. wth.. the movie script was being lengthen till epi 13. hais.. must be due to the overwhelming responses by the audiences. its always been like this. don't know what is so nice about this drama, its too unrealistic. i know that almost all the dramas and movies are very imaginative and things that happen inside the show will not happen in reality. however, this drama is the worse - too extreme.
heard ppl saying that this drama is a dream come true for all girls..

THINK..
"a poor girl who has to school and work PT at the same time, wake up one day and found herself to be the one and only granddaughter of the richest man in Taiwan. Not only that, she is also being surrounded by 4 charming guys, whom are the dreams of all girls. And among the four, one (the most handsome) is the fiance of the girl."

this drama will only leave you sulking even more about your own life.
so unrealistic.
to add to it, the story plot is not funny at all.. now that the last episode is being held till #13, i can guarantee that it will be even the more draggy.
the soundtrack is nice though.. especially the song by Angela Zhang - "bu xiang dong de"

the 2nd one being Huan Huan Ai (换换爱）(think the English title is Why Why Love, if i'm not mistaken).
hmm.. this show is much nicer. the main character had also just passed her 20th birthday in the show. haha. but i couldn't comment much on this, as i'm only up to my 3rd episode.

i've no life now, back to what i am half a year ago.
catching dramas like there is no day and night.
*sighs..*
and i've bought 2 dresses.. and i'm very happy with them!!
wahahahaha =D
at least something to brighten up my mundane life.

2007-11-23T23:03:00.000+08:00

super hard to keep myself awake at work today.
to the extent that i can even fall asleep while sitting inside the toilet. haha.

the medicine must be taking effect on me.
however, it seems to be working like a sleeping pill instead of helping me with my allergy.
because my rashes isn't improving, its still as itchy as before.
urghh, trying hard not to scratch too much (don't want someone to have the chance to call me a Monkey). but its hard, too itchy, my neck, shoulders, back, thighs.. all kena =(

itchiness.. be gone!

2007-11-19T10:40:00.000+08:00

The month which i've always looked forward to each and every year, has ceased to be this year.
i used to love christmas, even though i don't really celebrate.
the glamorous lightings, the cheery christmas songs and carols played in every shop, they build up the feel of the season of giving..
each yr, i've always been in a joyous mood whenever christmas is approaching.

but now..
i hate December. i hate Christmas!!
everytime i entered a shop, i would nv fail to hear the christmas carol playing, it would only get me feeling all lonely and teary ='(

i guessed Christmas this yr, i would be spending it all alone.
and perhaps, for another few years ahead.
not forgetting my birthday, which is some days apart from Christmas too.

i don't know how long i can take this.

2007-11-15T22:24:00.000+08:00

was feeling down the other day. had some disagreements and was upset.
however, the opportunity raised for me to voiced out a thousand and one things. i felt so relieved after that, as all these had been kept within me for a long time.
then, i tried not to think too much of it. just tried to remain normal and calm.

the following day, was super busy right from the time i started work. there was tons of stocks arriving, hence was preparing for deliveries to different customers and countries. time passed fast and before i knew it, its past lunchtime. its good that im kept busy, so i wouldn't let my mind wander too much.

nearing 6pm, received a call from bb.. asked me to go to the washroom outside my office. i was like, what!!.. pissed off 'cause im kinda fretting over my report which was in a mess.
i got out, and i saw him.. standing there.. like some sort of angel.. i realised i miss him. he came.. just to cheer me up and of course, my mood lifted just by the sight of him.. he promised me things, and im glad he's willing to make positive changes.

"bb.. it was a really sweet surprise you've given me.
not because of what u gave me that day.. but because it was totally unexpected!
cos i knew u were working, so it did not cross my mind at all that you would come to look for me, even when u asked me to go out to the washroom, i did not suspect anything. although i did not show it out, but i want to let you know that.. i was very touched. my tears almost betrayed me, but was lucky i held them back."

then, i knew i couldn't bear to let him go alone, just like that, asked him to wait for 5mins, while i ran in to packed up. heck that stupid report. can just do it another day.. nth is more impt then my bb.

2007-11-07T23:23:00.000+08:00

bloody hell.
just had a heated argument with my idiotic bro.
to think that I just bought a shirt for him. i must've been out of my mind.

seriously, its a wrong move to go to JP and also the post office located in the shopping mall after 8pm. and especially so when tomorrow is a certain festive holiday. lol~ sry, i'm being a little racist here. anyway, i went inside the post office at nearing 8pm. even just before i went inside, there was a queue much longer than usual - it was jam-packed (can be detected with both sense of sight and smell) with all the erm.. foreign workers, waiting patiently to (i assume) send money back to their countries. lucky me, few minutes after i stepped inside, the staffs started to shut the shutter. and then, as expected, alot of foreign workers were standing outside the post office.. and i mean alot... it came across my mind as the resident evil game - where the living deads would claw on the metal gates, trying to break it apart, while you managed to escape to the other side, safe for the time being. lol..
it was quite a scene actually. and as the staffs open the gate for ppl inside to exit, some of them got into the office.. the staffs were trying hard to hold them back.. i was watching the whole time, so engrossed that i didn't even hear the person at the counter telling me the amount of fee. i think she might have been repeating it for at least 3 times.. lol~ talk about being embarrassed.
afterthat, my mind was thinking how am i supposed to get out of this place.. when it was so chaotic outside.. haha, but fortunately, when the staffs were arguing with those workers (heard sth abt calling the security), i managed to sneak out of that place. quite an eye-opener. hahas.
its not everyday you are able to see this.
i sympathise with them though.. because some might have just rushed to the post office from work to send money back to their families for deepavali tomorrow =X ended up, they were rejected outside the office and told to come back only on friday.

that was not all.. every place where a single ATM is available, you will see a super duper long queue of (again) those foreign workers; regardless of whether its Maybank/Citibank/POSB etc.. especially near the MRT control station.. i really thought i had been teleported to India (no offence.. haha) because, 'anywhere you turned to, every corner, every entrance, every exit, every where, left, right, center..' you are surrounded by them, and you aren't able to see any other races other than them.

well.. happy deepavali to them..
the festival of light.. haha
anyway, quite pity them again, how come their festival only one day a year only. lol.

all in all, it was very chaotic at JP today..

2007-11-05T15:52:00.000+08:00

was practically suffering for the whole of last week due to some unknown reasons that were hurting my tummy badly.
i woke up everyday, thinking of getting MC on that day itself, but in the end still went to work. all because i thought the stocks are coming in. day after day, the goods kept delaying..
finally on thursday, the pain was too much, i couldn't take it anymore. instead of going to JP post office to register post, i alighted at JE and went straight into the clinic.
Luckily, i did not have to wait long before its my turn.
Well.. i don't really understand what the doctor is saying. but, all i managed to catch is that i had some contaminated food which made virus in my stomach and in turn caused wind - bloated feeling in the tummy. and also due to my irregular eating habits. waited till i'm very hungry, den overstuff myself. but, i realised that i get hungry very easily recently.. can't possibly expect me to have my lunch at 10am right..
i think i've recovered alrdy. if i had known, i would have visited the doctor on monday, instead of dragging till thursday. even so, i'll still need to keep track on my diet and not to eat excessively full/not eat at all.

now got another problem liao. this must be my unlucky month =(
but this time, i don't need a doctor, i can dignose myself.
i cannot smell anything =X which is both good and bad.
my ear is inflamed. know that irritating feeling of itch, yet can't scratch it because its piercingly painful if you stick your finger in it. urghh.. help!
symptons: flu/blocked nose/sorethroat
analysis: i've caught a cold and also abit heaty.

i'm a certified doctor!!
believe it or not. cn look for me, will charge you cheaper than prevailing rates.

**pls note: i'm not liable for any error or outcome caused by my more than often inaccurate dignoses =X

and btw.. i owe someone an apology.
for jumping into some silly conclusion and in turn causing some misunderstanding.
i put the blame on the virus thats creating havoc in my tummy the other time.
sorry =X

2007-11-02T13:48:00.000+08:00

i have a wish.

how i wish it will come true.

i'll be thrilled, excited and elated if it is granted.

but.. i know that it is not possible, at least for another few years.

2007-10-31T21:44:00.000+08:00

Rihanna - Hate That I Love You lyrics

(feat. Ne-Yo)

Yeah... hey...

[Rihanna:]
As much as I love you (yeah...)
As much as I need you
And I can't stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile? (No... )

[Ne-Yo:]
Coz' you won't let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did

[Rihanna:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long that's wrong

[Ne-Yo:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't want to fuss... and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you

[Rihanna:]
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...)
I can't stand how much I need you (I need you...)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oooh whoa...)
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oooh...)

[Ne-Yo:]
And you completely know the power that you have
The only that one makes me laugh

[Rihanna:]
Sad and it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I... love you beyond the reason why (why...)
And it just ain't right

[Ne-Yo:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I can't stand how much I need you (yeah...)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so

[Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

[Ne-Yo:]
Yeaahhh... Oohh...

[Rihanna:]
As much I love you (as much as I need you oh...)
As much as I need you (oooh... as so much I love you)
As much I love you (oh...)
As much as I need you

[Rihanna:]
And I hate that I love you soooo
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need ya (cant stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no...)
And I hate that I love you so

And I hate that I love you so... soo...

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damn how this song voiced out exactly how i feel!
so frustrated with myself >_<

2007-10-29T13:50:00.000+08:00

hmm.. ok. i'm feeling better now.

after rattling on and dwelling on it for so long..

let me see.

271007

was supposed to be a more than normal day for me.

but it turned out to be a dead boring day.

the night before, i slept at ard 9+pm, but woke up at 2+pm.

haha.. more than a 12hrs of sleep.

actually i jerked awake at 7plus, thought i needed to work, den hey.. realised that no work today, so (happily) continued my sleep.

woke up again at around 10am, suddenly came to my mind that today is the 27th. hais.. felt depressed.. so went back to sleep.

other than getting up to bath, eat etc.. i spent the whole day lying on the sofa and watching 'Full House' dvd. managed to watch only 11episodes.. the story is like never ending.. abit longwinded.

don't say that i'm slow lar, i know Full House came out for so many donkey years liao, but i simply refused to watch because i'm scared that i might like Rain, whom i absolutely dislike him for his almost invisible eyes. turned out that whew.. he did not managed to get me crazy over him. lol.

oh yeah. and almost forgot to mention that i've cut my hair.. more layers at the back and i sort of cut my fringe too.. so that it will have some form of layers. oh man, do i regret getting this haircut. now my hair looks more sucky than ever. a total disaster.

the whole day was quite depressing and saddening for me. haha.

the day after, went to work at shop.

was late as usual..

hmm.. while going for my lunch, bought two tshirts.

there is a staff being transferred from MS to BG outlet..

haha.. he is so blur. den that's not all, the funniest part is when he still talks as if he knows what he is doing. omg.. i was LMAO. no doubt, it was a good cheering up. lol.

my teddybear sent me back from work once again.

pls believe that i'm not taking you for granted.

however short it may be, i treasure all the times we share together.

2007-10-29T11:24:00.000+08:00

its been a week since i last updated my blog.
not that i'm too busy/ neglecting my online diary. just that everytime i wanted to post an entry, i would be reminded of the stupid incident and blunder that i've made. and the issue is still pending. hence.. don't really feel like blogging.
also, another reason might be i'm just being my stubborn self.

weekdays and weekends.. don't seem to have much of a difference.
previously, even though i hate weekdays.. i still have weekends to look forward to..
now that they seem the same.. hmm.
seriously feel that i'm wasting my life away.
i foresee that this week will remain the same.. either that or worse.

don't comment that more often than not, my entries sounded depressing.
well, it reflects what's in my mind at that exact moment.
i hate it that i sounded so pessimistic at times, but i really can't help myself. not sure how am i supposed to fake it and post something that's not what i really think. afterall, this is my blog eh. and by doing that, it will totally defeat the purpose of creating this web.
who wouldn't love an optimistic, vibrant and cheerful life, which is full of laughter and joy, without any worries, frets or discontentment?
these are easy for us to say, until you try to put it into action.
sad to say that things often don't happen the way you wish for it to be.

2007-10-22T23:21:00.000+08:00

Someone asked me to do this quiz.
And i realised that i'm back to doing what i was doing when i was bored in the past!
lol~

You Are 50% Left Brained, 50% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

You Are A Woman!

Congratulations, you've made it to adulthood.
You're emotionally mature, responsible, and unlikely to act out.
You accept that life is hard - and do your best to keep things upbeat.
This makes you the perfect girlfriend... or even wife!

Are You A Girl Or a Woman?

what?! i thought the last time i did this quiz, it said i'm a girl.
shucks. i hate being referred to as a woman.

Your Candy Heart Says "First Kiss"

You're a true romantic who brings an innocent hope to each new relationship.
You see the good in every person you date, and you relish each step of falling in love.

Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a romantic dinner your sweetie cooks for you

Your flirting style: friendly and sweet

What turns you off: cynics who don't believe in romance

Why you're hot: you always keep the romance alive

What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

Your True Birth Month Is December

Logical
Patriotic
Ambitious
Not egoistic
Loves praise
Loves to joke
Fun to be with
Not pretending
Loves attention
Short tempered
Hates restrictions
Loves to socialize
Loves to be loved
Loyal and generous
Impatient and hasty
Changing personality
Good sense of humor
Honest and trustworthy
Influential in organizations
Takes high pride in oneself
Active in games and interactions

What's Your True Birth Month?

Woa~ amazing! it really is my TRUE birthday month. lol^^

2007-10-22T16:57:00.000+08:00

time flies.. still rmb i'm dreading for the monday to come, due to my colleague going for reservist for 2 weeks and some other reasons.. but, look, he's back alrdy and 14 days had just flew passed. wow~

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- although nohohon is cute.. but, it can be abit annoying at times too.
i don't want a nohohon for my bf!!! >_< -
haha. just a flashback. my boy is being his silly self.

Today
beep beep. 1 message received.
quickly grabbed my hp and check.
nah.. just some ppl. *disappointed*

beep. 1 message received.
repeat the same thing.
ended up disappointed again.

it happened again and again.
den beep.
i told myself that "its not going to be him (cos i know its so not possible), so please relax when u checked the msg".
however.. "ohhh........" i still can't help but feel a little disappointment in me. lol.
i'm being stupid.

so this is what i meant by not having any expectations or hopes, or u'll end up disappointed. this is only a very minor case of e.g. that i'm stating here.

hmm.
anyway. i had a great weekend.
hmm.. he's being sweet and he has also given me a 'lil' sth' (as he calls it) ^_^
don't think i would bear to eat it, even though its tempting me so much.
just looking at it will do =)

aww.. now i don't know when will be the next time i can see him =(

2007-10-18T17:28:00.000+08:00

my precious happy mood is destroyed!!

keep rushing me for the stocks, "when is it arriving? why hasn't it arrive? my customer needs it tml morning, so you MUST send it out today. blah blah blah.."
you are not the only one who's urgent, other ppl also needing the parts asap.
what can i do. i'm also trying my best to rush the forwarder for the stocks.
its not as if i can control when, how and the time the goods can arrive.
alrdy told you i'll send them out once i receive. now that i hafnt even receive the goods, what do you want me to do.

ok. so the goods just arrived.
i told you and yet u still continuing to blah blah all the way on phone. still emphasising on the urgency, but with u wasting my time, how am i supposed to do the stocks?
my god.. you really damn desperate.

damn the DHL, haven't come and pick up the goods yet.
how long do you want me to do my OT?

i am only one person, i can only do this much.
i'm don't have a built-in computerised database in me ok.
if each and every client has their own customising for me to follow, i will go crazy.

hoo... cool down girl.
think.. think about your teddy bear.
focus on your sweet sweet love.
urghhh.. >_<

2007-10-18T09:48:00.000+08:00

was all smiles. been grinning widely or smiling sweetly at nothing while travelling from my home to workplace. hehe. so much so that ppl might think that i've lost my screw or sth. but, i couldn't care less^^

well, it wasn't too hard to understand, reason being, my teddybear had just given me a pleasant surprise yst. haha.

was supposed to meet him at our usual place at ard 6pm.. but he seems abit weird. i did wondered, "don't tell me he is going to come here (my office)." den again i answered my own thoughts, "no lar, he wouldn't. its just not his practice to give surprises." =(

so was waiting patiently for 530pm to arrive.. den.. i heard my boss calling me that someone is looking for me, so i went out to the reception. didn't see him at first, den got a shock when i saw him. haha.. omg. for a minute, i didn't know how to react, just gaped.
hais.. it suddenly seemed to me that i hafnt seen him for a long time.
it really was a pleasant surprise :)
its the first surprise he had planned for me, i tink.
anyway, it left me in an happy and uplifting mood, which i hope will last till saturday. hehe.
in the meantime, i'll just continue grinning like the cheshire cat =D =D =D