Everyday StoriesYYY
Friday, February 09, 2007,12:39 AM
ok. today is the last day of my exams.
i'm fretting so much during the exam periods.
but now that its over.. i wasn't too happy abt it either.
main reason: I feel so lost.
so the exams are over. what's next?
at least i'll just have to worry abt studying during exams.
but now..
i felt my future is bleary.
what else can i look forward to in life?
further studies?
what if the university rejected me?
work?
what kind of work?
temporary?
what should i work as?
the easiest way out would prob be gg back to the company which i had work for during my ITP. but.. the working hours & pays are so irregular. & i might had to spend most of my time standing at the counter, waiting for customer to willingly swim into the huge net that i'm casting. only then, can i earn that pathetic 1% commission.
i doubt other companies could offer anything better too.
permanent?
if its permanent, does that mean i will not continue to study anymore?
my life will be filled with headache, office politics & stress from upper management & colleges.
arghh! so no life.
NOOOOOO..
i don't want this to happen.
i'm still immatured, i can't handle all this.
but i can't simply lie at home doing nothing.
i don't wanna help at home either.
yea. selfish.
its all so confused inside my mind.
i'm alrdy stressed up.
i'm thinking too far?!
.
.
.
perhaps so.
but this three-way road spilt is what i'll have to face.
sooner or later.
_-*Shamain*-_
